Author Topic: I just fucking hate my life  (Read 1898 times)

BrokenHeart2

  • Member
  • Posts: 975
  • Widowed 2013
I just fucking hate my life
« on: June 27, 2015, 08:51:31 PM »
I don't mean to offend but that's just how I feel. People are all happy and going along thinking what's your problem, life is good like DH used to say.  No, it's shit and that's how i feel.
Thank you for letting me vent.
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

A Tout Jamais

  • Member
  • Posts: 175
Re: I just fucking hate my life
« Reply #1 on: June 27, 2015, 09:26:01 PM »
Quote
...life is good like DH used to say.


(((BrokenHeart2)))

Go ahead and vent as loudly and forcefully as you want!! I am listening and understand.

Oddly, My husband used to often say "Life is good!" as well, even when he was sick, but felt a little better. Now I can't stand to hear that expression anymore! So, YES, I do get it!





(Big HUG) to you, and may better days lie ahead!

ATJ

"Tu n'es plus là où tu étais, mais tu es partout là où je suis."
~~ Victor Hugo

"Je me souviens de toi ... Je me souviens de nous  - Il était une fois -  Je me souviens de tout!"

Trying

  • Member
  • Posts: 1634
  • aka MissingmyTim
Re: I just fucking hate my life
« Reply #2 on: June 27, 2015, 09:50:48 PM »
"It is what it is " was what my DH always said. Days like today I like to add "and what it is sucks!"

Sorry you're having a rough day or days.
You will forever be my always.

Virgo

  • Member
  • Posts: 897
  • Location:Indiana Widowed:2/4/14
Re: I just fucking hate my life
« Reply #3 on: June 28, 2015, 09:51:05 PM »
"It is what it is " was what my DH always said. Days like today I like to add "and what it is sucks!"

Sorry you're having a rough day or days.

My DH said that from diagnosis until the end. Yes IT sucks!

 ((hugs))
Jen

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." Dr. Seuss

BrokenHeart2

  • Member
  • Posts: 975
  • Widowed 2013
Re: I just fucking hate my life
« Reply #4 on: June 29, 2015, 12:51:22 AM »
My DH said it is what it is before and more so after diagnosis as well. And yes it does suck.  Thank you for getting me. 
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

Jen

  • Global Moderator
  • Member
  • Posts: 1076
  • Jim: 7 April 1974-10 April 2014
Re: I just fucking hate my life
« Reply #5 on: June 29, 2015, 01:18:15 PM »
I totally agree, BH2. I fucking hate my life too. It's not even all that bad-- I was thinking last night that, except for the vast gaping HOLE inside me, things have been going okay lately. But there's that vast sucking emptiness that I just can't get past. I hate this. I was a good, caring, loving person. Now I'm just a husk. I don't know how long I can keep this up. I'm doing my best, but it's not good.

Hugs, and thanks for the chance to rant a little. Sorry that I needed to.
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

"Dying is easy. Living is hard. ~George Washington, Hamilton