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Brenda

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Well, I guess I graduated...
« on: July 15, 2015, 12:12:02 PM »
Six months gone.  Hard to believe - it still hasn't sunk in that she's never ever ever ever coming back.  For the most part, I'm doing well; then once in a while (at least daily), it's like death sneaks up and stabs the sharp memory of her into my back and it's like she's just died holding my hand once again.

The good news: we do survive, don't we.  A few months ago, I'd have written that as a question.  Now it's a statement.  It gets better.  Sort of.

Now to focus forward onto the next six months...

Jen

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Re: Well, I guess I graduated...
« Reply #1 on: July 15, 2015, 02:02:05 PM »
Hugs and more hugs... One day, one step, one breath at a time. We're still here.
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

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Re: Well, I guess I graduated...
« Reply #2 on: July 21, 2015, 08:47:21 PM »
I remember how surrealistic it was to reach that 6 month mark. A part of me felt a sense of relief, that I was still here, still surviving, one day at a time. Another part of me struggled, because "graduating" meant I was moving further away from him. You are right. We do survive, whether we want to, or not.
"The highest tribute to the dead is not grief but gratitude." - Thornton Wilder

Thank you, my dearest Kenneth, for loving me and for giving me the best 13 years of my life.

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Re: Well, I guess I graduated...
« Reply #3 on: July 22, 2015, 06:42:39 AM »
You'll get to a point where you're not just surviving - you're living.  Promise.
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