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Radio Hell International
« on: July 22, 2015, 09:30:31 PM »
Dear loyal listeners and newbies alike: Radio Hell is coming back on the air. After an extended (and pretty miserable) hiatus, we're taking to the airwaves once again (largely because we can't reach some of you any other way - and we've missed you). Having hit the one year mark, we're re-opening up shop to take your requests and provide you with lots of (mostly useless, but occasionally accurate) information to help you while away those long, desperate hours.

One big change in our format - we may call upon veteran listeners to provide us with their updates and wisdom. It's very simple, folks - nobody gets out of this by themselves. As always, it is our hope that you'll never have to come again - but just in case you do, we'll be here.

Our first broadcast is a heartfelt shout-out to all the Euro-Wids who were present at Euro-Widow-Bago Amsterdam 2015. Much love to:

Jenni
Tweety76
Helen
Aicha
Gracelet
Ursula
and dear Injo

So you've been warned - Radio Hell is back. Now get out!
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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #1 on: July 22, 2015, 09:50:11 PM »
As if there was ever any real doubt. Can't stop the signal! :)
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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #2 on: July 22, 2015, 10:10:54 PM »
And much love back, of course! Europe will never be the same without you. :)
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #3 on: July 23, 2015, 06:10:40 AM »
looking forward to radio hell being back on air
much needed and missed
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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #4 on: July 23, 2015, 06:59:56 AM »
Boy, are you gonna be sorry about that! First transmission goes live in 3... 2... 1....

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #5 on: July 23, 2015, 07:03:14 AM »
Greetings, loyal listeners. Our first official broadcast is sort of a cautionary tale ? one of those ?Don?t try this at home? things. As always, you?re cordially invited to seek some actual help in another thread. Sometimes these things just need to be aired, but that doesn?t mean you have to breathe it in. Feel free to move on.

For a bit of backstory ? I?m one of those folks you read about in the papers, caught in the crossfire of the American Recession. I lost a pretty good job back in 2010 and could only manage to find part-time work as a teacher at a school where the students don?t actually want to learn. The hours are appalling, the pay is terrible, and the environment is openly hostile ? but at the ripe old age of 58, I?m not exactly on anyone?s ?must have? list. America doesn?t much honor the elderly.

So along comes the opportunity to take our broadcast to Europe (undying thanks to Jenni for making this a reality). And for a few days I find myself in the company of some incredible people. It?s odd how, looking back, there wasn?t a huge amount of talk about our grief; what it mostly consisted of was ample amounts of laughter combined with some of the most extraordinary surroundings one could ever find. It was uplifting, exhausting, and exhilarating; for those few days, I actually got to feel like myself again.

And then it ended ? and I now find myself having to be that ?other guy? once more, the one for whom there is no sympathy, no understanding. For those few magical days I was surrounded by safety and companionship. Now what I?m feeling isn?t jet lag ? it?s just that old familiar loneliness.

This isn?t a cry for help so much as sort of a warning: widow-bagos can provide a necessary means of escape from your sadness. But they have to end, and you may suffer a touch of boomerang effect in the aftermath. The only cure is the next bago.

So what?s the moral here? There isn?t one, sorry. Widowhood continues to suck. And that was, and remains, the business model of Radio Hell. It really only goes away when you build yourself a whole new life. For some of us, it takes longer than for others. Maybe you should try to fight your grief long enough to do something about your life before it starts to feel like it might be too late.

So we?re back ? and now is a good time, as always, to turn to the ?All Taylor Swift all the time? station. TTFN from Radio Hell.


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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #6 on: July 23, 2015, 07:29:11 AM »
For those few magical days I was surrounded by safety and companionship. Now what I?m feeling isn?t jet lag ? it?s just that old familiar loneliness.

It settles over you like a wet wool blanket. I got home and had to leap directly into my regular routine-- kids, dishes, laundry, school work, back to the grind. There's nothing really wrong with any of it, it just is what it is, and yet... what it is is still so empty. People are pleased that I had fun, but they can't grasp what it meant to me. No one wants to see the pictures or hear the stories-- and really, who would understand? All they can do is smile and nod. They don't get it.

So, yeah-- I hear you. And I want to go back, please. The sooner, the better.
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #7 on: July 28, 2015, 03:53:28 PM »
Thanks Michael , for expressing a lot of what I think about the recent bago. It was fantastic companionship and without even much talk about  the grief, it was palpable, but because everybody felt it, there was no awkwardness.
Companionship is a wonderful word. Yes. It is an antidote to loneliness. Very nicely said Michael.
And thanks for coming a long long way.
Por que tu fuego a?n me quema, sin ti las noches son eternas,
tu aroma sigue aqu?, no me deja ir.. Por m?s que intente y quiera olvidarte, yo nunca lograre dejarte, cautivo de este amor sincero esclavo de tu voz.. Por que estoy am?ndote, so??ndose, aunque no est?s aqu?..
Y yo te esperare, amor aunque los a?os lleguen sin querer (Marc Anthony)

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #8 on: July 30, 2015, 04:37:42 PM »
Just speaking for myself, I would've gone a whole lot further to see you all. It was so worth it. :)  ((((((HUGS))))))
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #9 on: September 09, 2015, 01:53:29 PM »
In keeping with our sporadic and frequently pointless attempts at public service, Radio Hell International would like to provide you with an end-of-season weather report.

As summer draws to a close, we find that it's not going gentle into that good night - it's leaving with a final blast of oppressive heat and humidity. But within the next few days, we'll be noticing the change in temperature; fall appears to finally be on its way.

And so the subtle stirrings have begun in the widow community; widows, as you know, are sort of a mega-barometer when it comes to changing seasons. The end of summer marks cooler weather, true - but it also begins the long, grotesque crawl to and through the dreaded "helliday" season. And signs of the discontent are beginning to manifest here and there; the kiddies are all heading back to school, parents' attentions are shifting accordingly - and now us wids are again faced with too much time to ponder how little progress many of us have made in the aftermaths of our tragedies.

With this in mind, RHI is going to propose the one thing that made all of the difference in the world since we've opened up shop a year ago - bagos! We're currently attempting to brew one up for Halloween weekend in NYC if we can get enough buy-in. Watch this station and the Meetings forum for more information. But there's no need to wait for us to get our act together - we strongly encourage listeners to engineer one or more of them as well. They truly make all the difference in the world. If you need more information, feel free to ask here and we'll get the best minds on the board to give you the correct answers.

The bottom line is that it's time to start prepping for the inevitable. RHI intends to do its part to ensure no wid is left behind. Share your thoughts with us - together we can continue to achieve the impossible.

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #10 on: September 09, 2015, 03:54:56 PM »

And so the subtle stirrings have begun in the widow community; widows, as you know, are sort of a mega-barometer when it comes to changing seasons. The end of summer marks cooler weather, true - but it also begins the long, grotesque crawl to and through the dreaded "helliday" season. And signs of the discontent are beginning to manifest here and there; the kiddies are all heading back to school, parents' attentions are shifting accordingly - and now us wids are again faced with too much time to ponder how little progress many of us have made in the aftermaths of our tragedies.

This must be why I'm crying sporadically again throughout the day. No real reason, nothing I can point to, just... something in the air. Sigh.

Glad it's not just me. Wish it didn't have to be any of us.

Hugs and love,

Jen
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

"Dying is easy. Living is hard. ~George Washington, Hamilton

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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #11 on: September 09, 2015, 08:57:33 PM »
- bagos! We're currently attempting to brew one up for Halloween weekend in NYC if we can get enough buy-in. Watch this station and the Meetings forum for more information. But there's no need to wait for us to get our act together - we strongly encourage listeners to engineer one or more of them as well. They truly make all the difference in the world.

Damn...with kids I won't be able to make this one...but I concur completely Bagos and the friendships they have helped to cement have been the most buoying part of this whole misadventure called widowhood.   
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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #12 on: September 09, 2015, 10:26:04 PM »
Michael, it is so good to see you back and to "hear" your voice, again! Your absence was noted, and you have been missed.
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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #13 on: September 09, 2015, 10:41:19 PM »
Are we going to post the bago?
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Re: Radio Hell International
« Reply #14 on: September 10, 2015, 08:51:34 AM »
Darn, Halloween weekend is a no-go for me as well with the kids' plans already in place. Luckily I will get a mini bago that week to look forward to.
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