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BrokenHeart2

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DH birthday on the 30th
« on: December 30, 2015, 11:39:19 PM »
Well I survived his 3rd birthday not here. I talked to my stepdaughter this morning with no mention of him. So weird. The 1st one I had a panic attack, so glad I haven't had one since. I am learning to live without him here and I hate it.  It is what it is.
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

Jen

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Re: DH birthday on the 30th
« Reply #1 on: December 31, 2015, 06:54:22 AM »
I hate it too. Every minute. I am so sorry. ((((HUGS))))
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MauiMermaid

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Re: DH birthday on the 30th
« Reply #2 on: December 31, 2015, 12:47:52 PM »
(((Hugs))) that you got through the day. My DH's birthday is today, 12/31. Tears started my morning. We'll see how the rest of the day goes. I called to thank his Mom for this day. Without her, I would have never had the wonderful life I was blessed with for 22 years.

Thanks for posting this. xoxoxo
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Bunny

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Re: DH birthday on the 30th
« Reply #3 on: January 03, 2016, 06:41:30 AM »
My husband's birthday was in November. 4th one without him (HOW is that even possible?!) He turned 50. Well, he would have... I know I'm getting better at dealing with stuff, but his birthday is a hard one- can't manage/don't want to do anything other than hide away from the world.



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Re: DH birthday on the 30th
« Reply #4 on: January 03, 2016, 08:43:52 AM »
I hate it too BH2, yet we have to find our way without them. I'm glad you didn't have another panic attack. I'm sorry he couldn't be here to celebrate the day with you.

Sending you tight hugs...
Without you, Baby, I'm not me.

BrokenHeart2

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Re: DH birthday on the 30th
« Reply #5 on: January 03, 2016, 11:25:20 AM »
 Thank you All for your support and getting me. This is such a strange and awful journey. 
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.