Author Topic: 17 months yesterday..  (Read 654 times)


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17 months yesterday..
« on: January 13, 2017, 03:18:37 AM »
Sometimes I feel life is pretty good and sometimes it really sucks. How could my husband just die and leave his three small children without a father? Totally unexpected on a beautiful day.. He had a family, a successful career, friends -he had everything you can wish for and now it´s all gone.

I can get really mad and I want to punch him in the face but he´s not here and he will never come back, never ever. When I fall in these holes of grief I´m so afraid of not getting up although I know I have managed to climb up many times before.

Just needed to vent.. Hugs to you all.

First Widow

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Re: 17 months yesterday..
« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2017, 04:52:55 AM »
Hugs to you Helena.  I'm at 20 months now and I'm still shocked by how angry I can be with him.  My daughter put a candle holder at the cemetery a week after the funeral and grocery shopping last night I passed the candles in the Goya section and had an angry conversation in my head with him, telling him he could get his own damned candles. 
"But slowly he stole my broken heart and put the pieces back together while I wasn’t looking…and I love him."