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LeahRoot84

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Letting it all go..
« on: January 13, 2017, 10:15:35 PM »
Laying in bed and softly weeping so my kids won't hear me. I don't understand. It's been almost a year and it seems it has gotten worse rather than better.

Why can't life be like a movie, where we lose someone and get them back?! That's what I want!

Instead, I lay here looking at the spot my husband used to lay his head at night. It feels so empty. Home is not home without my other half. Life is so unfair! It's just SO UNFAIR!!!
Leah

beth_krkswidow

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Re: Letting it all go..
« Reply #1 on: January 17, 2017, 09:55:39 PM »
I don't understand why I can't wrap my head around this.  I just can't.  He can't really be gone.  Why am I still such a mess?  Nothing is right.  Home is not home, as you said.  Nothing is right.  I hate this; I hate this.  I breathe.  I put one foot in front of the other.  I am not living.  Just existing
"Until my last breath, I loved you more than life itself." ~Kirk, in his envelope to be opened only upon his death.  And now I to you, My Love, until my last breath...

MR

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Re: Letting it all go..
« Reply #2 on: January 18, 2017, 12:28:37 AM »
 Home is not home, as you said is only realized once we lose them. Missing her at this moment and don't feel like having dinner or going to bed but know in my head that I have to do all this to stay alive for my kids.
Manoj

LeahRoot84

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Re: Letting it all go..
« Reply #3 on: January 18, 2017, 09:02:47 PM »
Beth and MR, hugs to the both of you! Your never ever alone. We will all have bad, good and terrible days. But we will all get through it together! Xx
Leah