I totally get it. I have dreams or have weird flashes randomly about my husband and I get disorientated and confused. I do think however my tattoo helps me so when I look at myself in the mirror questioning my sanity, I see my tattoo and I know what reality truly is. it is sort of my own personal "Inception" token to help me distinguish reality vs fantasy. It's hard to have your brain process AND completely accept our situations. We don't want it to be true and I think as a coping mechanism, our brains can really play a doozy on us. Hugs for you today.