Author Topic: Today is 4 yrs  (Read 613 times)

BrokenHeart2

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Today is 4 yrs
« on: May 30, 2017, 03:39:32 AM »
Hello Wids
Today has been 4 yrs since I lost my DH and I am feeling so different than I did last year.  I went back at looked at my post and there was slight "circling" but nothing like I felt last year and for that I am thankful.  Here's a link to a year ago:  http://widda.org/index.php/topic,2273.0.html4
I have become more involved with my community and I believe it has helped me immensely and I've also joined Victoria's Quilts and learning to quilt which I'm getting so much out of.
There is also a singer I saw a few months ago and bought her CD but didn't start listening to until a few days ago.  There is one of the songs that I am sort of relating to which is kind of cool.  Here's a link to the song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqBfS0L4s3o&list=PLylHSXm4wmLt-uFVM8EFnor-9D66I3jtz&index=8  She is a terrific artist and I love her whole CD.

You are all still my pillows on those hard days when I need that soft place to fall and for that I thank all of you!
Hugs






« Last Edit: May 30, 2017, 03:46:55 AM by BrokenHeart2 »
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

BrokenHeart2

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #1 on: May 30, 2017, 03:45:03 AM »
Opps, I hit quote instead of modify and can't delete this comment LOL
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

Needytoo

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #2 on: May 30, 2017, 05:53:35 AM »
To you Brokenheart2 the awesome quilt maker.  I also am heavy into volunteering and taking classes. I love it. I love meeting new people and learning a new skill. Right now I am taking sewing lessons. The daughter of the seamstress is finally learning how to do it.

I will be thinking of you today Brokenheart2.

TooSoon

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #3 on: May 30, 2017, 06:24:03 AM »
Shout out to you from four and a half years!  Life is generally pretty good but still has its bumps and ups and downs.  It no longer has anything to do with my husband specifically but just the reverberations of everything that turned our world upside down.  Sending lots of love. 

Trying

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #4 on: May 30, 2017, 06:26:01 AM »
Hugs to you. I'm glad to hear you are in a good place and can enjoy new interests, that's something most of could never have imagined possible for us.
You will forever be my always.

Bunny

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #5 on: May 30, 2017, 09:07:08 AM »
So wonderful to see all the ways you are growing and evolving. Will keep you in my thoughts today- keep on keepin' on, sister...
It is a fearful thing to love what Death can touch.

BrokenHeart2

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #6 on: May 30, 2017, 10:37:55 PM »
Thank you to all of you.  Once again you are my pillows.
« Last Edit: May 31, 2017, 05:19:39 AM by BrokenHeart2 »
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

Needytoo

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #7 on: May 31, 2017, 05:46:13 AM »
This family disconnect is a huge problem, it is in my family as well.  I wonder if they could step in our shoes for just an hour if they would change.

I also don't understand posting on Facebook. Exactly what are they looking for when they do that? 

BrokenHeart2

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #8 on: May 31, 2017, 07:09:55 AM »
Thank you NT.  I don't know what they're looking for but she got all kinds of condolences. Unbelievable.  I deleted my other post this morning because I thought it sounded whinny. 
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

Needytoo

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #9 on: May 31, 2017, 04:44:29 PM »
I wondered if I was losing it, I must have posted right when you deleted your post. 

I don't think you were whiny at all.  This summer I am working with two international students one from India and one from Brazil.  They talk to their parents sometimes twice a day for at least an hour at a time.  I seldom talk to my brother and sister and might talk to my father once a month for two minutes.  There is something wrong with this.  For some reason, my brother and sister and I can't remember each other's birthdays. Why are we so disconnected? 

Now let's look at Facebook. Why did your sister post that picture?  She did it for sympathy?  Why are we posting on Facebook for this?  We are all looking for love and acceptance, but why the hell are we so afraid to do it? 

Facebook is now my huge experiment.  My all the likes I get you would think I am very popular but the truth is I still have only a handful of close friends.  There is my whine for the day.  :o

BrokenHeart2

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #10 on: May 31, 2017, 05:13:06 PM »
Thanks NT no you aren't losing it lol.  I have 5 siblings.  I believe I'm the only one that knows all of their birthdays.  I was always the one to connect and over the past 4 yrs I have been doing much less of that.  I'm tired of always being the one.  I don't post much on fb either.  I did not post anything yesterday about DH and neither did my 2 stepkids. I don't know why she did it, well I do think it was for attention.  I guess the only pic she could find was one with my brother, yeah right. I'm really hating fb these days.  Way to phony for me. I'm only on now because of the community stuff I'm involved in and oh yeah, I'm a bit of a political junkie :)
All this stupidity too shall pass. 
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

Needytoo

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #11 on: June 03, 2017, 07:47:45 AM »
When is the stupidity going to pass? I have been waiting for awhile.

BrokenHeart2

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Re: Today is 4 yrs
« Reply #12 on: June 03, 2017, 08:01:41 AM »
Yes, me too! I did go to the funeral with her and when she brought it up I told her I didn't want to talk about it.  What's the point, there is no point because she doesn't understand and won't listen anyway.  I will not bring up my DH with either sisters again.  That's the crazy part, I hadn't in so long and the one time I do, that's what happened so I'm not willing to go there any more.  Our relationships were forever changed when they weren't there for me for so long so it is what it is.
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.