Author Topic: Nightmares  (Read 534 times)


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« on: July 04, 2017, 11:37:04 AM »
I lost my dear Scott literally 42 days ago. He had a heart attack, stroke and undiagnosed diabetes. We have three adult children. I woke up to find him lying gone next to me. I have horrible guilt that if only I would have woke up an hour earlier I could have saved him. I don't sleep because I keep seeing him that morning.
I have tried to make everyone happy and ended up making myself miserable.
Do the nightmares ever go away?


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Re: Nightmares
« Reply #1 on: July 04, 2017, 12:03:37 PM »
Hi, Angela,

My second husband died of unknown heart issues in our bed in his sleep as well.  I wasn't home.  What if I was?? 

Honestly, I quite likely would have woken to find him dead next to me as you did.  Sometimes, there just isn't anything we could have done to have made a difference.  I know too many widowed folks - men and women - who were there and did the whole CPR routine and couldn't save their spouses, either.

Right now, think about taking care of yourself.  I know that your kids lost their dad and his family lost their son and brother, but you aren't responsible for them right now.  Remember that everything that was his is now yours and you can take all the time you need to go through your home and his stuff and make decisions about how to distribute or dispose of anything.  DO NOT let anyone pressure you into anything.  Very little needs to be done NOW.  Things can wait...and you will begin to realize how long it takes to get things done and how you can get spurts of energy to do things and then spend periods of time paralyzed and unable to do anything.  This is all normal.

Nightmares...tend to fade over time.  You might relive those moments over and over in full technicolor, but my experience is that even the worst of those fade over time.


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Re: Nightmares
« Reply #2 on: August 19, 2017, 03:29:54 PM »
You did the best you could at the time with what you had to work with.

Life happens, so does death. Just mentally file it in the category where that broken vase or that clogged drain (because you couldn't find all the chunks of food in the water before you drained it) live. It's something beyond your immediate power to change. Back then, it was too. You did the best you could with what you had to work with.

It's not your fault and nobody will ever say that it is. Those that try to blame you aren't human at that moment and need to go away.