Big big hugs - I can relate as my kids have both graduated high school and are now college students, all of this without their Dad. He would have loved to be there for all of this, there's been a huge gap in celebrating these milestones and I've tried hard to include extended family in on everything. It's taken a little bit of the sting away to have a group of us at graduations, etc. but oh so painful to realize that he's not here to celebrate with us. At particular moments I would pause and ask what should be done, and every so often I'd get a voice in my head and imagine that it was him talking to me and making suggestions. Foolish maybe, but it made me feel better thinking that in some small way he was a part of it. Best wishes to you for the school year -