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Trying

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4 years
« on: September 20, 2017, 07:40:41 AM »
I sit here crying for him like I haven't in a while. As my present and my future keep pulling me forward I find myself looking back to my life with him.  I have been over the anger for some time now but today it is there, why him? Why us? Why did I have to make all new dreams after 25 years of dreaming with him? Why do my kids have to grow up without their Dad?

Tomorrow I will go back to acceptance and looking forward but today I really need wallow in my grief and acknowledge how much I miss him and our life together. 
You will forever be my always.

Wheelerswife

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Re: 4 years
« Reply #1 on: September 20, 2017, 08:18:35 AM »
I understand, my friend.

Grief mixes weirdly with hope for the future, eh?

Hugs to you today.

Maureen
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Julester3

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Re: 4 years
« Reply #2 on: September 20, 2017, 11:06:01 AM »
Hugs!!

MR

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Re: 4 years
« Reply #3 on: September 20, 2017, 01:19:42 PM »
Tight Hug... I suppose whole our life will be like this.

Abitlost

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Re: 4 years
« Reply #4 on: September 20, 2017, 03:49:16 PM »
This is a very familiar feeling. The only thing that makes it more bearable for me now than in the early years  is that I know that I will catch my breath and return to acceptance. I also know there will forever be waves of grief that knock me down again, and it's okay to lean in to them.

Hugs,

abl