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Widow's Song by Carolyn Moor of Modern Widows Club
« on: March 26, 2015, 12:08:35 PM »
'A Widow's Song'
- Despite what you might think, we are not stuck living in the past because we hang out with other widows.
- We are not in denial that we lost our spouses and yet, have a life to live for today.
- We know we aren't the same person as before anymore.
- We probably do need counseling- among a lot of other things.
- We occasionally make bad judgements. That's how we learn.
- We know we don't fit 'normal' for you (or us) in the world.
- We know you want us to go back to the person we used to be. We wish that too but it's not happening.
- Maybe we are crazy, if crazy means nothing makes sense anymore. Feeling crazy sends me on an emotional roller coaster which includes both laughing and crying in one sentence.
- We are going to talk about them, have their picture around. Forever. 2 years is not a long time in our world.
- We feel like you over step your boundaries with us. We yearn for your empathy.
- We can't fix this right now for you or for us. We are doing our best to just breathe, eat, sleep, evolve, think and pay our bills.
- We are in pain. Deep pain that can't always be seen on the outside. But believe me, it's in here and it hurts. So much so that I want to vomit over it sometimes.
- We aren't going to cover it up when it rises up. It's not healthy.
- We do our best to help you understand when it makes you feel uncomfortable. But being uncomfortable is only one part of this process.
- We hope that you never feel this way.
- We doubly hope this never happens to you.
- But if it ever does, know this one thing- I won't treat you like this because then, and only then, will we both understand all this without any words spoken.
Please have the utmost patience as I create a new song for the orchestra of my life.
B.H.S. 1-20-1974 - 11-13-2014

You will always be my Jack and I will always be your Sally. For we were simply meant to be.