Author Topic: Today is the second sadiversary  (Read 1358 times)

BrokenHeart2

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Today is the second sadiversary
« on: May 30, 2015, 04:50:33 AM »
Well here I am awake before 6 am thinking where did the last 2 yrs of my life go and WTF am I going to do with my life now. I held a dinner last night with DHs family and my 2 20 something stepkids are here now and my niece. We had a lovely evening.  I am blessed with his family and so lost at the same time. How did this happen that I am here and he isn't here with me. Oh I hate this so much. Sometimes I feel like my 20 yrs with him was a dream that somehow changed over to a nightmare.
I want him back so much and I could also hear him tell me to get on with it because that's not going to happen.
I miss you Babe so much.
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.

JeanGenie

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #1 on: May 30, 2015, 05:07:12 AM »
Sending you hugs BrokenHeart
Just passed my 2 yr sadiversary and you hit the nail on the head--WTF pretty much sums it up!!
Yes, this all seems so surreal and what are we supposed to do with our lives now??  Beats me but for today, I'll send you some virtual hugs.  Be kind to yourself today.

I miss how happy I was with you.

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #2 on: May 30, 2015, 05:23:01 AM »
Tight hugs BH2.  Days like this it's harder to imagine how to "get on with it". 
You will forever be my always.

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #3 on: May 30, 2015, 09:28:27 AM »
Huge hugs Brokenheart. I had the same thoughts exactly. I get it. No grand words of wisdom here. One day at a time. 

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #4 on: May 30, 2015, 09:32:58 AM »
Mine was March. It was not fun. In some ways worse than the first one. I will always miss my baby. He was awesome.

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #5 on: May 30, 2015, 12:00:01 PM »
Oh, hugs, hugs. I wish I knew of a magic fix. Thinking of you...
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

"Dying is easy. Living is hard. ~George Washington, Hamilton

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #6 on: May 30, 2015, 05:45:46 PM »
Sending you tight, tight hugs, BH2...
Without you, Baby, I'm not me.

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #7 on: May 30, 2015, 06:50:29 PM »
((BH2)) With you.

BrokenHeart2

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Re: Today is the second sadiversary
« Reply #8 on: May 30, 2015, 09:57:01 PM »
Thank you for your kind supportive words and thoughts. You have no idea what it means to me (well maybe you do :) ). Today turned out better than I thought it would and for that I am grateful
I don't want it to be his legacy that his death destroyed me.
I need to honour his life by rebuilding my life.