Author Topic: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread  (Read 66990 times)

Rayspumpkin

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #285 on: August 09, 2016, 02:06:40 PM »
Fuck being widowed. Fuck that my friend Sarah is being cremated today. Fuck that her fiance now thinks I'll be a good mentor for him because everyone thinks I handled losing Daniel so well. Fuck being called bitter. Fuck people telling me to stay away from Sarah's fiance because it depresses me. Fuck people trying to control my grief for my husband, my Momma AND now my friend! Fuck that I'm sooooo very used to saying fuck these days. Fuck wanting to lay on Daniel's chest and cry until I feel better. Fuck being broke. Fuck being alone. Fuck that I can't even screw a random guy to feel better because I don't want ANYONE except my husband. FUCK that I'm almost 4 years out and this isn't getting ANY easier. Fuck my pity party.

LOVE all of you so, so, so much!!!

MrsDan

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #286 on: August 11, 2016, 03:08:31 PM »
Fuck that it is 2016 and I'm still dealing with this old boys club shit.
You are the Bear of my heart dear,
And nothing can take that away.

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #287 on: August 13, 2016, 04:48:21 PM »
Fuck that after thinking and reflecting and crying and considering all the angles I know exactly what I want in life... and fuck that I can't have it. Fuck that there's really nothing else for me. Just fuck it all.
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

"Dying is easy. Living is hard. ~George Washington, Hamilton

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #288 on: August 17, 2016, 07:24:59 AM »
Big hugs to you Jen and huge "Fuck You" to your situation. Unfortunately my crap is blocking any positive feedback for you.

First off I must start of to saying a big FUCK YOU to myself.  Why do I keep doubting my own intuition.  That good old gut feeling is there for a reason and because I have doubted it time and time again and now I hope I have learned my lesson. 

A huge FUCK YOU to the contractor that ripped me off but I stopped his further con work.  Watch out for these assholes.

Fuck you insomnia and couch paralysis.  I am responsible for not trusting my gut now deal with it.  (might need some Valium to help  :o).

Another Fuck you to myself.  Because of not trusting my gut it most likely caused a friendship to end.

Fuck you to my old passive self, time to play like a grown up and stand up for yourself and not just sit on the couch and eat away your troubles. 




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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #289 on: August 17, 2016, 10:26:01 AM »
FUCK you to my brother and his whole family for treating my mother like a second class citizen for their whole lives. Fuck the fact that I found out his son is expecting a baby because his girlfriend of a few months posted it on Facebook and tagged him. Fuck that she did so before anyone bothered to tell my mother or my sister, and so all their douchey friends knew before his grandmother and aunt. Fuck the fact that it was news to my sister when I told her, and fuck the fact that I'm pretty sure my mom doesn't know. I don't care for myself; I haven't spoke to my brother or any member of his family for over two years and have no real plans to do so. But fuck them all for the disrespect they show my mother. Oh and fuck the fact that this girls gets to keep having kids and I'll never have another baby. And fuck me for getting upset about that, because I'm supposed to be okay with not having another one.
You are the Bear of my heart dear,
And nothing can take that away.

canadiangirl

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #290 on: August 22, 2016, 08:42:09 PM »
Fuck feeling overwhelmed so often and over such small things.  Fuuucck the things that sit on my to-do list for ever, fuck that things keep breaking so that list is ever growing, and fuck trying to manage that list yet still be a present parent.  Fuck that the handy person is gone so I am paying through the nose for contractors that I cannot afford, for those things that Google and I simply cannot tackle.  Fuck that I never seem to get to that magic formula of energy + time + motivation.  Fuck that my child could already be a basement hacker, electronics are so present in my house.  My social worker, who was once a divorced parent, said that someone once told her that "being a single parent means failing at everything - failing at housework, parenting, one's job, friends, etc."  Although not a defeatist by nature, and I don't feel that fits for everyone, FUUUCCK that that fits for me!  (right now) (again, there's that hope thing) (hopefully this will change).  Fuck.

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #291 on: August 22, 2016, 11:11:30 PM »
Fuck feeling overwhelmed so often and over such small things.  Fuuucck the things that sit on my to-do list for ever, fuck that things keep breaking so that list is ever growing, and fuck trying to manage that list yet still be a present parent.  Fuck that the handy person is gone so I am paying through the nose for contractors that I cannot afford, for those things that Google and I simply cannot tackle.  Fuck that I never seem to get to that magic formula of energy + time + motivation.  Fuck that my child could already be a basement hacker, electronics are so present in my house.  My social worker, who was once a divorced parent, said that someone once told her that "being a single parent means failing at everything - failing at housework, parenting, one's job, friends, etc."  Although not a defeatist by nature, and I don't feel that fits for everyone, FUUUCCK that that fits for me!  (right now) (again, there's that hope thing) (hopefully this will change).  Fuck.



Fuck that I'm only allowed to hit "like" one time for this!!

Mrskro

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« Reply #292 on: August 23, 2016, 06:40:02 AM »
Right there with you CanadianGirl.    I need that same formula energy+time+motivation.  I can somehow maybe manage 2 of the 3 but not all of them.    I don't think its failing.  I've decided its prioritizing.  So what if the dishes and dusting don't get done on a timely basis.  Fuck em.


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« Reply #293 on: August 23, 2016, 10:49:43 AM »
Canadiangirl,

I so relate to your post. I'm so sorry you are feeling the same way. I don't feel like I do anything really well anymore. It is all just pieced together enough to get by. It is another dynamic of being widowed that I hate. My counselor is working with me to improve my self-esteem. I used to manage a 200+ healthcare facility with 200+ employees juggling about 30 balls at any one time. Now I get overwhelmed if I have a couple things competing for my attention at once. What is to feel good about myself about that? I'm so tired of this, really just so tired in general. Fuck my life.

Hugs to you all...
Without you, Baby, I'm not me.

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #294 on: August 26, 2016, 12:34:57 PM »
Fuck that this broken heart will never, never heal. I don't think it'll ever work right again. :-(
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. ~Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

"Dying is easy. Living is hard. ~George Washington, Hamilton

donswife

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #295 on: August 31, 2016, 08:06:18 AM »
Fuck !!today would have been our 25 th wedding anniversary
just fucking unfair
My everything

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #296 on: August 31, 2016, 03:33:38 PM »
Tight hugs to you, donswife!! I am so very sorry he isn't here to celebrate with you. I wish I could absorb some of the hurt you are feeling right now, so it wouldn't hurt so much. It isn't fair. He should be here.

Sending love and more hugs...
Without you, Baby, I'm not me.

canadiangirl

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #297 on: September 14, 2016, 12:55:01 AM »
A repeat post, but FUCK CANCER.  Another person lost yesterday (a friend's dad), another widow, some reliving of sad moments.  Effity-eff to this effing disease. 

Sirin

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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #298 on: September 15, 2016, 09:27:44 AM »
I'm so glad I found this forum.  I guess this will be my first post!

Fuck being a new member of this club.
Fuck people who tell me to "be strong" and "you will move on"
Fuck people who tell me that I'm "still young and there are so many interesting people in the world" & "maybe I will meet someone and remarry and have children"
Fuck people who said "call us if you need anything" and disappeared.
Fuck not being able to explain to my dogs where he is now.
Fuck house maintenance.
Fuck wondering what my future is supposed to be like now.
Fuck being exhausted all the time.
Fuck making a second cup of coffee and putting it by his photo every morning.
Fuck wanting to drink every night.



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Re: Once again, ladies and gentlemen... the F*** YOU thread
« Reply #299 on: September 16, 2016, 02:31:11 PM »
Fuck doctors who make you wait for important medical test results! Fuck trying not to worry that your children might end up with neither parent while you wait.
Without you, Baby, I'm not me.