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Time Frame => Shock Wears Off, Reality Sets In ( 6 to 12 months) => Topic started by: LeahRoot84 on January 11, 2017, 09:27:36 AM

Title: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 11, 2017, 09:27:36 AM
The memories are really hitting me hard these past 2 days. Me and my husband were really great friends before ever becoming husband and wife!

Me and him would travel places and run through the woods together, random 4 am car rides to Dunkin donuts or to just pull over and talk, fires outside in the summer, talking until morning when we could no longer hold our eyes open.

Everything he has ever said to me is ringing in my ears. My heart is heavy today. All I wanna do is cry. I miss our memories but most of all, I'm missing him...😥
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: Julester3 on January 11, 2017, 11:29:22 AM
Hugs!
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 11, 2017, 03:23:09 PM
Thank you Julester3. I feel like a need a bunch of hugs lately! Especially to hold me together.
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: angelk75 on January 11, 2017, 06:15:48 PM
Leah, I know there are no words that can help right now but sending hugs your way.
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 12, 2017, 08:58:13 PM
Thank you angelk75. Xx
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: Julester3 on January 12, 2017, 11:03:37 PM
It really is hard. My marriage sounds similar to yours so it really feels like we are simply feeling incomplete - almost handicapped without our partners. It has helped me so far that we were both originally strong independent individuals before we dated. When we started dating, we became a team, great collaborators who were very complimentary and could talk about anything and everything. He really brought out the best in me. I now feel like a lessor version of myself without him. I look for that independent individual person I used to be but I don't know. It's been a long time since I was that person.

Like I told my kids recently: life for me is like a radio. It may not be high def, digital, in stereo, or the best sound quality but still, I can hear the music. Glad to give the virtual hugs. It helps give courage and a little bit of strength.
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 13, 2017, 10:17:30 PM
Hugs right back to you Julester3!! I'm waiting for things to get better. Seems as though, I'll be waiting forever. Praying for a miracle at this point.
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: beth_krkswidow on January 14, 2017, 06:00:45 AM
Hugs to hold me together... yes, that sounds like a good idea.  We all need hugs to hold us together... or try to put us back together.  But I feel like Humpty Dumpty.  NOthing will ever put me back together...
but hugs are good.
So, hugs to you... warm hugs.
Title: Re: It's hurting so bad...
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 14, 2017, 11:15:58 AM
Tons of hugs on the way to all of you in such a terrible time in all of our lives..