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Time Frame => Shock Wears Off, Reality Sets In ( 6 to 12 months) => Topic started by: LeahRoot84 on January 13, 2017, 10:15:35 PM

Title: Letting it all go..
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 13, 2017, 10:15:35 PM
Laying in bed and softly weeping so my kids won't hear me. I don't understand. It's been almost a year and it seems it has gotten worse rather than better.

Why can't life be like a movie, where we lose someone and get them back?! That's what I want!

Instead, I lay here looking at the spot my husband used to lay his head at night. It feels so empty. Home is not home without my other half. Life is so unfair! It's just SO UNFAIR!!!
Title: Re: Letting it all go..
Post by: beth_krkswidow on January 17, 2017, 09:55:39 PM
I don't understand why I can't wrap my head around this.  I just can't.  He can't really be gone.  Why am I still such a mess?  Nothing is right.  Home is not home, as you said.  Nothing is right.  I hate this; I hate this.  I breathe.  I put one foot in front of the other.  I am not living.  Just existing
Title: Re: Letting it all go..
Post by: MR on January 18, 2017, 12:28:37 AM
 Home is not home, as you said is only realized once we lose them. Missing her at this moment and don't feel like having dinner or going to bed but know in my head that I have to do all this to stay alive for my kids.
Manoj
Title: Re: Letting it all go..
Post by: LeahRoot84 on January 18, 2017, 09:02:47 PM
Beth and MR, hugs to the both of you! Your never ever alone. We will all have bad, good and terrible days. But we will all get through it together! Xx