widowwithbaby

I'm almost at 7 months and the last few days have been the hardest to date. I went for a drive in the car and screamed like I've never screamed before. I've been to the cemetery every chance I can while I'm home for Christmas. My daughter seems cared for and my career is staying on track, but this pain is so unbareable. I don't even know if I want to keep on without him. I'll do it for our baby girl, but the pain... o the pain... I hear you.

Does anyone live near Atlanta?

mbanyard - yes exactly. The same thing is happening to me. There seems to be nothing like the holiday season to remind me that I am no longer anyone's priority. Family seems to be the worst. And I was thinking the same as Beth. Why aren't we just getting together? This sucks

My husband was killed by a random act of violence. Our baby is now 18 months old. Before he died my husband stayed home with her. Currently my sister stays with me and keeps her while I work. Everything about this is miserable right now. I miss him so much. We decided when she was born we wanted one of us to stay home with her. Now instead I have to forever be grateful to my entitled millennial sister because all the daycare centers are either full or too expensive. Will life ever be good again?

My name is Camila. On June 1, 2016 my husband Shah was shot and killed while driving for Lyft. You can Google it, it was all over the news. We had just celebrated our 3 year anniversary since our first date. Our daughter had just turned one. When we met, he hardly spoke any English, but we fell in love and he moved here from Iran. We had been married for over two years and he had a joyful confidence about the future. It's still hard to believe a random carjacking ended our dreams. I got on this site because it's getting harder, not easier. The holidays really remind you that you are no longer anyone's priority.

Inovermyhead I wish I had the guts to skip family Christmas, although I feel like being home alone with a toddler might be worse. It's my first holidays and thanksgiving was awful. I applaud you doing what you need to do. We will all survive this, right?

Beth, This is my first time on here but I got on because I feel the same as you. December 1 was 6 months for me. I'm not doing any better. This is the worst. I don't know how to survive the holidays. Both being around family and being alone are the worst. There seems like nowhere to turn for relief. How are we supposed to do this? Hope 2017 is a better year?