Megan89

I took two weeks off of work and then went back and got on intermittent FMLA. I initally used it one day a week and went to grief counseling that day and took the rest of the day off. Now it's just if I'm having a particular rough day, I can call in and it doesn't count against me. About crying at work...initially my boss was supportive, but today she told me it's really unprofessional when you cry. She doesn't know how hard I try not to. I understand it must be getting old for them, as it's coming up on 11 months, but some days still are just so painful. I need the structure of work. With no kids and friends and family all working, I didn't want to sit in an empty house all day and night with nothing to do. I'm sorry I don't really have any advice for you. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone!

I'll hit the 6th month mark on Monday the 11th. Just curious if anyone noticed any significant changes on the half year mark?? Anything that you tried to do differently once you got past the initial shock?

Hi everyone first post here. I lost my husband Douglas at the age of 28 back on June 11th after complications from anesthesia after surgery. He was born with spina bifida and paralyzed from the waist down but he worked full time and drove a big truck. He loved skydiving and wakeboarding. We were together for almost 10 years and married almost 9 of those. We met when we were 17 and got married at 19 years old despite everyone's opinion on how we were too young and we were still going strong. I feel so empty and lost without him, every day is just so hard. Today is my 28th birthday and the first birthday I am spending without him. I wanted to include him as much as possible so my father in law and a group of his friends did a skydive jump with his ashes. I thought with that event maybe I wouldn't feel so alone but the loneliness was worse than ever, even when surrounded by all those people. I just wish so much he was here with me today more than ever. I know this is just the beginning of many firsts without him and I'm overwhelmed thinking about how to handle it all.