its been almost 60 days and I can’t decide if I’m losing my mind or if just so angry that I’m shutting down. I lost my husband, the love of my life in December. We were together for 25 years, since I was 15 and he was 18. We have one beautiful amazing teenage child who I feel should be my motivation to move forward everyday but I feel I’m not strong enough too. I wake up every morning and have to convince myself to breath in and out and get out of bed because I can’t have my child see my loose it. But when I drive to work, or in the shower, or simply in our bedroom I find myself crying and i can’t stop. Sometimes she knocks on the door and i can’t answer it because I don’t want her to see me because it will just cause her to cry and I don’t want to upset her; but it hurts so bad. Friends don’t understand and i honestly feel they’re only patronizing me and would prefer not to talk to me until I’m “normal” again. Will there ever be a normal again?
