Mattie

Hi Melissa, I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s so hard. I’m 10 months out as of yesterday. I wouldn’t say it gets easier but you find that you can feel joy and happiness again. I still miss my husband every day and still can’t believe it happened. He was only 33. Therapy, my anti anxiety medication and taking time off of work have helped me tremendously. It’s all about doing what’s best for you. I hope this helps. Hugs!

Thank you so much for that. That is really comforting and helpful to hear.

Thank you so much. These last few days have been pretty dark and intense. I am missing him more and more everyday and I am trying to be hopeful for the future and that someday I will feel ok again. This is so brutal and unfair and Im so angry for him. He was accomplishing his goals, living his best life and was happy.

As of yesterday, I lost my husband 1 month ago. Im starting to have the what ifs. What if I called him earlier? What if I just told him to sit in his car and cool off for a few minutes? Its all so insane and painful. My husbands heart stopped because of wolff parkinsons white syndrome. I wish I could have done something to help. This is so miserable.

Thats the same with the last day I saw my husband. I kissed and hugged him goodbye, then a few hours later he collapsed. And thank you for being here for me . Its still so unreal. And if you need to talk know that I am here for you as well. I hate that anyone has to ever go through this.

I am taking a while off work as well. I don't think I have the brain power right now to do my job. I am in our home right now because it's really comforting to be here. My sisters and friends have been taking turns staying the night with me so Im not alone. It really does help to talk about him as much as possible. And you're so right, it is a huge hole in your heart. I look at pictures of him every day and that helps me. I miss him so so much and it helps to have my sisters to cry with. My work is being so nice and letting me work remotely for a little while until im ready to get into a schedule.

I’m so sorry you went through this too. It’s still so hard to believe. Thank you so much for your kind words. This is truly the most painful thing to go through. I’m glad counseling has helped you. I’m really hoping it can help me as well. These waves of numb and pain are almost unbearable. How have you been able to keep going?

Thank you. It’s so hard and I’m so sorry for your loss too. It breaks my heart that other people are going through this too.

Thank you guys for your support. This is going to be such a long road.

Two weeks ago today, my 33 year old husband collapsed in front of our apartment door. He was running home on a lunch break with a coworker of his to meet me so we could get our paper work done for our passport renewals. We were planning our honeymoon. When I got home the paramedics were still working on him. Five days later he was gone. He went too long without oxygen. I feel like I died. I feel like I’m floating in time and that there isn’t a point to anything anymore. I miss him so much and I love him more than I can put into words. We were married 4 and a half months. Two weeks before he collapsed he got a big promotion at work that he worked so hard for. I am so angry for him that he doesn’t get to even enjoy it. We don’t get a wedding anniversary. I start counseling next week and I hope it helps a little with the pain. Im so lost, sad, empty and hurt without him. I feel so afraid to be trapped feeling like this forever. I miss him so much.