I completely understand as I have said the same thing over and over again. It has been just over 2 months since I lost my Lisa.
I am just starting to accept the fact that she is gone but what really scares me is that I am just realizing she is never coming back.
Every time I try to take a step forward I get smacked with the reality of my life without Lisa. When I picture my future, she is there for a second and then reality sets in.
The truth is that we loved someone so much that we cannot imagine a life without them and that is a tribute to our love.
I struggle with hearing that time heals wounds or that I will be OK. Time with Lisa went so quickly and now it is at a standstill. It feels like Groundhog Day every morning.
I believe that none of this is supposed to make any sense to us because it isn’t normal.
I watched my wife fight for her life with confidence, grace and a smile on her face. I have prayed and asked for just some relief and every now and then there is a break in the clouds.
I will miss and love Lisa forever and it was my privilege to be her husband and caregiver.