Dear Trish, I cannot thank you enough for what you wrote. My husband did not come home on 8/3/18, he hung himself and I found him. We have 3 children and had been through so much together. He was my best friend. We married when I was 23, and would have been married 26 years on 6/19/19. I miss him everyday, and feel the guilt that you write about. I had no idea, I never saw this coming,. Of course in hindsight, I see everything now. THANK YOU for your post - thank you for sharing your story.