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I think this is what I miss most, my husband before he got sick was so handsy! From day dot he was always hugging me, kissing me, i just miss it, I feel cold all the time, I’d love to be just held but I really don’t think I could connect to anyone emotionally for a very long time, I may invest in a BOB. It’s just so sad, my 16 year old self would never have believed life was going to go this way 😢

Hi, this might be a strange one but please tell me I’m not alone in this and someone might ease my guilt, my husband died 9 months ago, I met my beautiful man when I was 16, head over heels from day 1, so happy together, 2 beautiful kids a lovely home and then boom our lives came crashing down around us, he passed away when he was 35, I cared for my husband for 3 years, it was his wishes that we had no outside help and I was 100% fine with that, yes it was exhausting but I love him so much it was easy to do, we always had an amazing sex life but for the past few years that also was out of the question, it feels so long since I’ve been held, lately I find myself missing sex so much, this makes me feel so guilty surely it’s him being him I should be missing why am I even thinking about that? Is this normal? I don’t feel I can speak to anyone about this (I don’t want to be judged!) my heart aches without him, I’ve never been with anyone other than my husband, can’t even imagine what that would be like, I miss being kissed and just held even, I’ve a million things going around my head and everyday it exhausting, so lonely

My lovely husband passed away 4 and a 1/2 months ago, he was 35, we were together for 17 years and the loneliness I’m feeling is unbearable, we had such a happy life together and 2 beautiful children, even on our darkest days through his sickness (3yrs) we still laughed and joked, not every day was easy but having him lying beside me every night was enough to get me through it, it feels like everyone has moved on from him and I get it that peoples lives have to go on but I feel like screaming sometimes, I don’t even know what I’m trying to say here, I guess I’m just angry that my life feels so empty without him and everyone else is just getting on with it