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Hi Katrina - I know it's been some weeks since you posted and I hope you are continuing to hang in there. Every time I go to a grocery store, I am glad to see baked goods and I wanted to thank you for your work. I am not a good cook or baker and I appreciate that basic comfort food is available, and hope you stay safe. My husband died in February 2019 and I feel like I was starting to figure out who I was outside of being his wife - but then the pandemic hit, and I feel like I have to start over again figuring out who I am. It is hard. And I'm struggling figuring out by myself how to best help my teenaged kids struggling in this uncertain time.

Love this - thank you for sharing and a real reminder of why I am NOT at my most productive!

Thank you for starting this trend. I’m Sharon, and live in Colorado. My husband had a fatal heart attack on a run before work in February 2019. He was 49 and we thought in great health—he was a regular long-distance trail runner. My children are 13, 18 and 21. I have found great comfort in reading posts here although I have posted little myself. We have been getting through ok, but the months November (starting with his would-be 50th birthday) through the holidays and up to the anniversary of his death in February were so hard and sad. We made it, and I was greatly relieved that each of my kids had something exciting that they were looking forward - end of senior year, 2 graduations, a fun spring break trip. Then that was all turned on its head. I am trying to find some bright moments each day to appreciate what we have. My heart goes out to everybody, especially those with loss and fresh grief. This site has been a place where I am able to feel a little less alone in my sadness, and I am so grateful for it. I wish all of you well!

I am so sorry you are going through this. I lost my husband just over a year ago to a heart attack and those immediate weeks were so difficult, with many tears, and remain fuzzy to me. There is frequent good advice on here about continuing to take care of yourself. Just getting through the day so soon after the shocking loss was a lot for me. This forum has been hugely helpful to me and I hope it is for you, and maybe check out the forum dedicated in part to addiction, which may resonate with you on some issues. I imagine returning to work seems so hard and still so soon. Hopefully in time the work place can provide some support for you. Sending you a virtual hug.

I’m so sorry for your huge loss. Do take care of yourself. If there are any friends or family at all who you feel like you can talk to, try to see them. I hope this group makes you feel just a tiny bit less alone in your loneliness. I know it has for me, even though I don’t really post. Just getting through the day, eating, sleeping, etc. is work. Sending virtual hugs to you as you move through these days.

The holidays are so tough. This is my first post. I lost Andy in February, totally shockingly unexpectedly, so this is also my first Holiday season without him. For my kids' sakes (3 teenagers) I feel like I have to make an attempt at Christmas traditions. I have scaled back - half the decorations, smaller tree, kids can decide whether they go to certain events. But survival is really what it seems like. A couple days recently I've spent with those same zombie-like feelings I had when he first passed. I too look forward to reaching January. November may have been tougher for me - our anniversary, his birthday. At least for Thanksgiving itself I traveled and spent with a lot of my side of the family - which is easier for me. Hugs