100peacocks

It’s been 8 years since that horrible Thanksgiving Day when my LH passed away so suddenly. I had a meltdown today. Missing the deadline to pay for my son’s field trip just tipped me over the edge today. The trip was one of the requirements for his high school advanced program, and I dropped the ball. I’ve been juggling so many things for so long. With the holidays coming, the demands of in-laws, the demands of work, the demands of keeping the house upright, of kids activities, of people wanting me to volunteer for everything, and lunches, and going out. It’s just too much. It’s this constant barrage coming straight at me. I sat down and cried today. It’s been a while since I’ve done that. And I miss him so much. And it stresses my kids so much when they see me upset. I tell them it’s not their fault, but they feel guilty nonetheless. Sometimes it’s just too hard. I just signed up to this forum today...just needed to release my emotions out there. :*(