My husband was young. Only 43 when we found out he had lung cancer. He passed away 3 months later. I myself am 35 and we have 3 children. I feel so lost. I can't seem to focus on anything and I find myself trying to push everyone away. We were married for 15 years and I feel like I don't even know who I am without him. I loved him deeply and think of him all the time. I can't even begin to describe the way I feel inside. I just found this group yesterday and thought maybe talking to people who are not so close to me and who have been through what I am going through might help. I have a hard time breaking down in front of others, I just feel it is a very private thing but sometimes it can not be helped. I often take long sobbing showers where I can be alone. I am lost and have no idea what to do now. I still can't believe this is real.
