Hunter

It has been a while since I have posted. I finally moved back to the US and I ma in the process of getting the family settled in Kansas. Just found out that last night the wife of one of my young former Soldiers passed away from a heart attack, she was only in her late 20s :'( Thankfully my former team members are by his and his daughter side, but I am also going to provide him with the address of this board. You all helped me tremendously and I cannot think of a better group of people who I know will help him get through this awful time.

I went through almost the same exact thing. Started finding things that I had no clue about to include where she wrote in a book one simple line "I get away with so much" The best advice I can give you....ignore it, let it go, hold onto the woman you knew and loved.

This is what Chapter 2 looks like ;D Yes...I have to hang up my hunting gear as we got married two weeks ago.

I would not say dating was necessary easier when we were younger, but more that we were completely different people then. Add on top of that when we were younger the only past either person had was their childhood. Now take those back issues from his divorce, what you are bringing in with you from your experience, and add in the children who have their own personalities and issues they are trying to deal with the best they can....it is a challenge. Hugs lady. My new lady's son is 14. Normally he is a good kid, but there are times when I have to act like a Zen monk with him. If it does not feel right to you, and you have talked to him about this, then either enjoy your time for a bit with him knowing it is just a casual thing....or move on. I took a lot of what the ladies here told me to heart about relationships and burnt through quite a few dates before I was able to find the right one.

Here I am once again alone sitting in the dark with silence. As I went to her grave today to lay some flowers I was taken by surprised by conflicting sense of time. I know it has been two years according to the calendar, but internally my sense of the time passed rails against itself. During those early months of pain, isolation, and emptiness time seemed to go so slow as I watched the world continue on around me, oblivious to the storm within. I continued to move on one small step at a time. After a while I was finally able to get myself out of that dark place to at least be able to go through the motions of completing a daily routine. It took several more months before I started to feel like a person again. During this past year I have not only found myself again, but have learned that it is possible to find love again. I have worked myself through the internal struggles and conflicts of not only of "Is this what she would want me to do?" to avoiding comparison and seeing my new partner for who she is. So as I stood there today one part was surprised by feeling these past two years feeling more like it has been 10 and another part feeling like it was only two months ago. Jenny, I still and forever will miss and love you. Your robust personality and waves of love you washed upon me will forever be with me. Goodbye my love, until the day when we are reunited in the next life.

It is not too much. I call my lady every day and we talk for two hours. She lives 2.5 hours away so we only get to see each other every other weekend. But we are looking at her moving this summer to live with me and Jaydee :-) When I know she is having a bad day I try to do something a little extra special. But dont get down on the guy, some of us just get wrapped up in our thing and lose track sometimes...now if it becomes a habit, well.....

We met online in February 2014, waited until April to meet up in person. Been a great time ever since :-D