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  1. I took mine off around 2 months. My avatar shows what happened to it. I put it and her rings on a combination lock, so they would stay together.
  2. For my Wanda's 44th birthday (She died at 43, last Feb), some of her friends and I went to some of her favorite places. Indian food for lunch and her favorite bakery for a slice of her favorite cake.
  3. I appreciate the thought, but no, not really. I am not a well man. I have medical issues that are eventually going to make me more of a cripple. I'm already strung out on meds. I've no desire to be 60-70 and 10 times worse off. With her alive, it wasn't so unbearable a thought. I'm not suicidal, at the moment. But I have stopped taking all the meds and intend for nature to run its course. I just hope it doesn't take years and years. I'm not very patient.
  4. Do you find yourself getting more and more angry and hostile? I went in a convenience store, this morning and the clerk was just talking his ass off to me. I got more and more angry, as he babbled on. I didn?t utter a word back to him. He kept talking, trying to make me speak. I simply ignored him, paid for my stuff, and left. I?ve been feeling this way, more and more, lately. I more or less hate the human race, except for a few exceptions. Why do people feel the need to try and make you talk if you don?t want to talk???
  5. I do mean what I say... However, I have reasons for not simply "checking out" at the moment. Likewise, I have several other reasons to do it, should it become necessary.
  6. It seems like an eternity. All I want is to die, myself. I've lived enough and done enough.
  7. Congrats! My baby girl is 22 years old, now..
  8. I cancelled my DS account. That (what you said) and I had a run-in with a 73 year old bible thumper... It just made me angrier.
  9. Well, we did the cleanup. Surprisingly, the sign was already put up. It was nice to see, although it made me cry... Then, yesterday we went to her favorite places to celebrate her birthday. Very emotional weekend.
  10. I'm pretty much in the same place. I was close to suicidal six months ago (had a plan and everything, though not a great one). That's passed now, I'm not going to do anything, but I have no interest in prolonging my existence. The really sad thing is that I'm 40, in better health than I've been in years (physically), and I absolutely hate that my life ended at 39. It's not fair. Sometimes I look in the mirror, and for the first time in years-- maybe the first time ever, to be honest-- I actually like what I see. And it's wasted, because I'm just waiting around to die. I know exactly how you feel. Personally, I have type 2 diabetes, hypertension stage 3 (blood pressure is sky high on a daily basis), and I don't care one bit... I died on 2/19/15... I'm just waiting to stop breathing. I'm 46 and spent the bulk of that alone. No desire to do another 40.
  11. I've been crying for 10 weeks, now... I admit, it's not as frequent as before, but it's still there. That and depression. Depression has really got me, at the moment.
  12. I hate that she's gone. I mean, how am I supposed to just "keep going?" I only exist, now. I function, but it's like I'm on "auto-pilot." I get up, go to work, pay the bills, etc. And that's it. I don't want anything else. I want her back. [move]This really sucks...[/move]
  13. I seem to have a tiny advantage, in this area. I had pretty much shut people out of my life, before I had even met Wanda. I am very used to being alone and I am quite comfortable with it, on the whole. Before we met, I would get lonely, maybe once a month or 2, but normally, I was ok. Now, I miss HER. I don't miss company or talking to "people." Only HER... I have a few options for talking, though. Here, DS, facebook, and her family & her best friend. They have not abandoned me. My family and friends haven't, either, but they are harder to talk to. Oddly enough, I am more comfortable talking to the few others that feel the horror as much as I do, if not worse (her parents).
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