I'm just so tired. I've had issues with my daughter lately. She says she trying to see if she can save her marriage. I'm not opposed to her doing that. Problem is she just assumed I'd be against it, so she sneaks around, lies to me, uses my car to go see him, etc. That pisses me off. Then I'm the 'bad guy'. So I'm backing off from her. She absolutely needs to make her own decisions, especially who she spends her life with. I'm tired of being the bad guy in these issues.
It's like I have to beg her to text me, she avoids talking to me.
I cant talk about Jim to anyone. I miss him all the time, but when I bring him up both kids get "that look" on their face, and I know to drop it. My ex daughter in law sent me a message at Thanksgiving telling me to not talk to his granddaughters about him anymore. That its too painful for them, and they avoid talking to me because of it. Jim's son, their Dad, broke off contact with me after about a year and 1/2.
So the one person I could talk to about all this isn't here, and I cant talk about him to anyone either.
I'm tired of this struggle, the loneliness, and having to deal with this crap alone.