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  • Date Widowed
    05062016
  • Cause of death
    natural brutal death


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  1. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    Last year I was waiting for an awful text message which would tell he passed away... and now, after one year without Fly... all we can do is remembering such a wonderful man. so unfair. Sigh...
  2. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    10 months since he is gone... one day, he taught me only me can decide to be miserable or not. I think it helps more than I could have imagined and wanted to share this here.
  3. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    you're right Maureen. Missing him too...I have no words...
  4. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    still can't believe he is not there anymore...
  5. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    12 weeks tonight ...
  6. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    I miss Fly too... like crazy ....
  7. sandrine2279

    Contact Info for TooSoon?

    Hello, I have the same question because Toosoon was the first person to contact me here and I needed to hear from her badly. thinks
  8. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    much more than I can write it
  9. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    much more than I can write it
  10. sandrine2279

    We have lost one of our own

    thanks Maureen for your post. beautiful as I already wrote ... my Fly, you expanded my heart, brought me back to life and now life broke me again. love you forever. xoxoxo
  11. sandrine2279

    Three good things

    1. Tofinoman 2. Tofinoman 3. Tofinoman you expanded my heart, life broke it again. love you forever xoxoxo
  12. sandrine2279

    Why are "good days" so hard?

    Hello, I don't pretend I understand what I do most of time. I am 21 weeks out only. All I can say is that I doo have a lot of guilty feelings too (why grief didn't kill me instantly or after a few days? how can I eat a meal (even if I basically survive on protein snacks and lost already more than 20 pounds), how can I now keep my mind busy at work?, how can I smile from time to time? etc...) I read a post from a young widow there about different ways to grieve: http://girlfriendsarethenewhusbands.blogspot.fr/2016/04/two-ways-of-grief.html I guess I am definitly an "houdini griever", it probably has something to do with my "culture" about grief (not living anymore must be respecting him). Sorry, I don't have wiser words to help but I think it's what makes me feel guilty about my "good days" . (((hugs))) G.
  13. sandrine2279

    UnWed Widows, come out come out where ever you are!

    Thank you Maureen and Kater, Since my last post, his mother went to the police station accusing me of robbing my bear's stuff and she said to my parents I was mean with him. It also seems that she and her daughter read all the text messages I sent to my bear since the police has given them his phone and she also made sure, a few weeks ago, that my bear's friend who also have the only video with his voice won't give it to me. Finally, she came at my parents and told them putting a stone on his grave is not her business... today I learnt his father was seen at the cementary leaving with flowers he took from the bins.... and I can't keep my bear's memories because we weren't married.... sorry, I needed to write it there. Hugs.
  14. sandrine2279

    UnWed Widows, come out come out where ever you are!

    Thank you Maureen for you answer, His mother is pressuring me calling all the time since yesterday. She tries to call my mother too. This stressful situation is really making me sick. 15 weeks out = it's yesterday he leaved my office and never came back home... You're right I need time but they don't want to let me some. At least, one year would be a more acceptable timeline for me. I don't even know when or if I would be able to get back to our house one day. Hugs Sandrine
  15. sandrine2279

    UnWed Widows, come out come out where ever you are!

    I think today is the day to speak about my condition of unwed widow, who never cared getting married or not (like my man). I've been treated as if we were married during the funerals. Anyway, the family of my beloved teddy bear is always so dumb they couldn't handle nothing properly (even went to the toilets instade of following the coffin...). I had only three years with the love of my life. Sorry, if I wasn't given the chance to spend the rest of my life with my wonderful men and most of all, if he wasn't given the chance to live (he was 32). Today, I am 15 weeks out and it hurts enough. Today his mother insisted like she never did before, asking me to give "his family" all of his favorite stuff that "were important to him" and I am offered to keep my own presents I gave him... I was ready to break my heart to give them a part of his stuffs but it seems they want to let me nothing. The reason she told me is that "his family" have been with him for 30 years (they never took care of him like I did btw) and so that's normal I don't keep memories. I asked for weeks to send me photos of him I don't have and the only video with his voice (he hated pics and video) and never received anything. His (step)father who has never been a real father for him wants his favoriteskin bombers to wear it and asked for it even before we burried my bear (ughhh), so respectfull... and I have so many memories with that piece of my bear. So, I don't mine not being part of this family since I have never liked the way they treated him since he was a little boy, but my bear and I had projects and we were our own little family (talking babies, a new dog, planting trees in the garden two days before I lost him...). Love you my Bear.

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  • Date Widowed
    05062016
  • Cause of death
    natural brutal death


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