sandrine2279
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Will life suck forever (on the top of grief)?
sandrine2279 replied to sandrine2279's topic in Relationships/Remarriage
I remember reading this article from onefitwidow (I read her blog in the early days and it helped me) : https://www.onefitwidow.com/marrying-a-widow/ her current husband wrote : widows and widowers "feel deeper emotions and live fuller lives every day"..... Maybe it is in not such a good thing when you end being hurt.... Makes me affraid of trying again one day... (hugs) -
Will life suck forever (on the top of grief)?
sandrine2279 replied to sandrine2279's topic in Relationships/Remarriage
Thank you for your kind support I just took my stuff back at his flat yesterday. I didn't cry. He almost did. He said I am sorry and I just answered that there was no need to be sorry (I already told him... that I didn't want him to apologize cos I don't care). I made him feel like the piece of sh..... he has been to me... not saying the truth. gosthing me for a week.... now I have to work on not devaluating myself although he feels better with her (well, he talked about her like his was talking about me 2 weeks ago). I am not asking for anybody to treat me in a different way just because I am a widdow but... how was he able to hurt me so much knowing what I have been through? it is strange to feel heartbroken 3 years after such a grief. so I question what to do....loneliness is hard to.... but if trying to meet someone just causes more pain... (hugs) -
Will life suck forever (on the top of grief)?
sandrine2279 replied to sandrine2279's topic in Relationships/Remarriage
Update.... things getting worse... in fact he met someone else and has a crush... sigh... life is still brutal after grief. 3 years ago I thought I couldn t hurt for anything else than loosing my bear... but... I can... -
Will life suck forever (on the top of grief)?
sandrine2279 replied to sandrine2279's topic in Relationships/Remarriage
update : he is already online on the dating site.... I feel like I dreamt all the good moments with him. he is already over me anyway.... -
Hello, Here I am, finally… and feeling alive again turns mostly… hurtful I came here 3 years ago after loosing my love life suddenly. Here I met … wonderful Tonfinoman and had to greive him without being able to met him… fucking cancer. But recently I finally met a wonderful guy online. we joined each other in Paris after 10 days of messaging and long phone calls. we’ve been seeing each other each week for whole week-ends. he was feeling very emotional at some point…. he made surprinsingly great projects… short-time and kinda long-term. even came to my hometown and met my closed friends …. I went to Paris again seven days ago. he asked me to book train tickets to go with him at a painting class next month. Last week end appart he called me for hours and too days after told me he was fearing that is feelings will not grow enough in the future… and that he didn’t want to hurt me … I told him he is probably questionning himself too much and too soon and he agreed to have a second thought about us. he said he would call me the day after. he didn’t and ingored my calls (although he has got some of my stuff in his flat and should be worrying about expensive train tickets I will never use…) He thought we were so connected…..and now I don’t what to do. he is special to me and after loosing my bear, it is easy for me to know what I want because I know the value of each little happy moment…. today I feel like life is just hurtfull… forever… whatever I do to move forward… Sorry I am not here to give some hope today. Sandrine
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Last year I was waiting for an awful text message which would tell he passed away... and now, after one year without Fly... all we can do is remembering such a wonderful man. so unfair. Sigh...
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10 months since he is gone... one day, he taught me only me can decide to be miserable or not. I think it helps more than I could have imagined and wanted to share this here.
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you're right Maureen. Missing him too...I have no words...
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still can't believe he is not there anymore...
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12 weeks tonight ...
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I miss Fly too... like crazy ....
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Hello, I have the same question because Toosoon was the first person to contact me here and I needed to hear from her badly. thinks
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much more than I can write it
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much more than I can write it
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thanks Maureen for your post. beautiful as I already wrote ... my Fly, you expanded my heart, brought me back to life and now life broke me again. love you forever. xoxoxo