Viva Posted January 21, 2017 Share Posted January 21, 2017 3 years ago today, I saw my DH alive for the last time. Watching him leaving me in a heart beat was the most heartbreaking moment in my life. I remember that evening was so cold and I was alone in the emergency room when I was told by a doctor, "I am sorry....we have tried our best". My head went blank and could not believe for what I heard. That moment was still very clear in my mind...even after 3 years. Life without him was extremely hard especially for the first two years. I cried before I went to sleep every single night for almost 2 years. Now 3 years passed by, I start to get used to the "forced to be single" life again. Everything seems going back to normal again but I still miss him every single day. I don't cry very often now but today......I cannot stop my tears...... I just miss him a lot a lot today...... :'( :'( :'( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wheelerswife Posted January 21, 2017 Share Posted January 21, 2017 Hugs to you, Viva. I just passed the 3rd anniversary of my second husband's death 10 days ago. I understand all that you say. I'm marching forward, unwilling at times. This isn't the life I expected, but it is the life I have right now. I shed tears with you. Maureen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Julester3 Posted January 22, 2017 Share Posted January 22, 2017 Thinking of you today....hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Captains wife Posted February 2, 2017 Share Posted February 2, 2017 Sometimes it just seems so surreal what has happened -it sounds like you lost your husband suddenly...I did too. And I walked around in shock for about a year after that. I'm sorry you are missing him - at 5 years I am getting more back to "normal" every day but I get these twinges of really missing him and so wishing we could have at least had one more conversation. A good cry often helps....Sending widow support. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest TooSoon Posted February 2, 2017 Share Posted February 2, 2017 Tomorrow is my 4th. Somewhere in year one, I made up my mind that we were going to live again and that's what we're doing but it has been a long, tiring, and above all confusing road that just seems to go on and on and on, with odd triggers still catching me by surprise. I guess there is a weight I will always carry with me now. A loss of an innocence I guess I was fortunate to enjoy for as long as I did. Wishing you peace. And sending love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trying Posted February 2, 2017 Share Posted February 2, 2017 Hugs to you on this difficult day, I hope memories of happier times together can push aside the memory of that last awful day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Virgo Posted February 12, 2017 Share Posted February 12, 2017 Hugs to you Viva. My 3 years was February 4th. I'm struggling right now with the "forced to be single" life too. I miss him and being half of a couple. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Viva Posted February 27, 2017 Author Share Posted February 27, 2017 Thanks for all your support and I am thankful to have this forum to help me getting through of that difficult time. I think our lives will have some colors again with our spouses’ love. They will always in our hearts. （（Hugs）） P.S. Captains wife, yes...I lost my husband suddenly because he had a heart attack. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jgib Posted April 5, 2017 Share Posted April 5, 2017 It was my 3 years on January 31st. It was the worst anniversary yet for me. I think because I am not numb anymore. I am like you, I have mostly adjusted to the forced single life. I thought the anniversaries would get easier so this one was a bit of a shock. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sojourner Posted April 6, 2017 Share Posted April 6, 2017 Viva, my thoughts are with you; peace to you. At first the only memories I could come up with of late DH were of his passing, replaying over and over. At almost 3 years myself, other, softer, memories have resurfaced and are mostly what now come to mind as I think of him. But I still have that clear, sharp memory of his death, as well. And as I get closer to that anniversary myself, it comes back more and more. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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