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Lewis

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It has been eight and a half years and I still vividly remember my last night with Kathy. It was a Monday night and we had stayed up until 10pm practicing a trumpet/piano duet for church, where we were scheduled to perform the next Sunday. Our music was echoing throughout the house and keeping the kids awake as they lay in bed. We were on our Christmas vacation so there was no need for an early bedtime. We practiced for a bit and then headed to bed happy that we were able to get a good practice completed.

 

That night I remember Kathy rolling over in bed at exactly 2am and pressing her back up against mine with a feeling of love that I will never forget, as that was the last moment that I had with Kathy alive. At 6:30am I was in a state of sleep where my eyes were closed but I was aware of my surroundings. Kathy had made an exhaling noise that sounded exceptionally weird.

 

I abruptly opened my eyes and tapped her arm just hard enough to see if she would respond, but not hard enough to wake her up. I just wanted to verify that nothing weird really happened. No response. I tapped a little harder but she still did not react. Then I pushed her to wake her up and it felt like I was pushing dead weight. Panic struck and I jumped out of bed so that I could see exactly what was happening!

 

Immediately I noticed that her eyes had a glassy look to them and she definitely was not breathing. I grabbed the phone to call 911, then picked her up and placed her on the floor to begin CPR. It only took the ambulance 10 minutes to get to my house and the first responders continued CPR for over 30 minutes until Kathy’s heart began a soft beat on its own. At that point she was transferred to the hospital where she never gained consciousness and did not survive through the next day.

 

I stumbled through life over the next few weeks feeling like I was a glass window, shattered by hurricane winds, and was being blown in every direction. Being left with five young kids forced me to keep the daily schedule mostly intact, but internally my heart was paralyzed from grief. I was referred to the previous young widow forum and I found a sense of comfort from my new club members. Night times became more tolerable as I read through posts and realized that I was grieving normally.

 

Through this forum I have met many widow/ers, several of which became my lifeline while I was grieving the hardest. It is my hope and prayer that you find this forum as comforting and helpful as I did.

 

Sincerely,

Lewis

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Lewis- Thanks for writing this. It feels sobering and humbling, always, to hear what others have gone through when they've lost their spouse. I cannot imagine being left to cope with five kids. I can't imagine having my loved one die in bed next to me. For me, it was cancer that took my spouse. We got to say goodbyes. I had one child, almost 18 and she also got to say goodbye to her Dad. Each of us, in our own circumstances has so much to deal with. There are always details unique to each of us. There is something universal at play though- something that breeds a very specific brand of empathy. This empathy is like a trophy for me- I survived (!) and I get something good to carry around with me. 

 

It's so important to have this place to read what other's have survived (or are surviving) and to speak to what we suffer as widows and widowers. Thank you and the others involved in creating this site (I was active on the previous young widow bulletin board) and for keeping it going and for keeping it looking good! Well done.

 

Can you please give guidelines for this blog section?  Above it says it is a group blog. Occasionally I do some writing that pertains to being widowed but since I am such an old-timer (my husband died 15 years ago and I've been remarried for quite awhile too)  I usually just stick my paragraphs in the General section but maybe this blog section is more appropriate? 

 

 

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Thanks Jeudi! I will get info on how to work the blogs tomorrow. It's late and I am worn out tonight. ZZzzzz....

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On 5/1/2018 at 10:07 PM, Lewis said:

Thanks Jeudi! I will get info on how to work the blogs tomorrow. It's late and I am worn out tonight. ZZzzzz....

 

Hi Jeudi, I have created a discussion on how to create a blog! :) 

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Thank you all at the Support Team. This site (all versions) has been a life saver for me. 

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Calloway

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thanks Lewis! Your discussion is easy to follow- I'm super impressed with the way you did that! 

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That must have been such a hard thing to experience.  I used to worry about that happening. Don't think I could handle that.

My husband was killed while working at a gas station.  A negligent  driver, who was mad about three things that happened in the parking lot got pissed, and accelerated as he pulled away from the pump.  Proceeding to run my husband overr. That was September 10, 2017. 

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