This is the first forum I've ever joined for any reason, so I'm just trying to figure out how everything works. I lost my husband to suicide almost 6 months ago. He passed away the day before my birthday. This week will not only mark 6 months, but his birthday is on Thursday, as well. I'm just trying to gain some perspective and get in touch with what I'm really feeling. I feel like I've just been surviving and going through the motions since it happened - work, kids, bed, work, kids, bed; over and over. I'm exhausted! I think I've been putting off reaching out to others in my situation because I have been holding on to the thought that he might actually come back to me! I feel guilty every time I change something in the house because I think, what if Bob doesn't like it, or recognize the house, and therefore decides not to stay. I express these thoughts to my family and friends, but it doesn't seem to help. They look at me with pity. Anyway, I just felt compelled to reach out, so here it is - hello everyone!
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This is the first forum I've ever joined for any reason, so I'm just trying to figure out how everything works. I lost my husband to suicide almost 6 months ago. He passed away the day before my birthday. This week will not only mark 6 months, but his birthday is on Thursday, as well. I'm just trying to gain some perspective and get in touch with what I'm really feeling. I feel like I've just been surviving and going through the motions since it happened - work, kids, bed, work, kids, bed; over and over. I'm exhausted! I think I've been putting off reaching out to others in my situation because I have been holding on to the thought that he might actually come back to me! I feel guilty every time I change something in the house because I think, what if Bob doesn't like it, or recognize the house, and therefore decides not to stay. I express these thoughts to my family and friends, but it doesn't seem to help. They look at me with pity. Anyway, I just felt compelled to reach out, so here it is - hello everyone!