Silwe Posted May 23, 2015 Share Posted May 23, 2015 I used to listen to a lot of music after my DF died. It has been almost two years now, and as I listen to the same music as I did then, I realise that something has changed. I've got over some kind of a milestone in my grieving. It might be because I found a new man, who has been everything I could have asked for, and has helped me a lot. There was this one song I used to listen to, and cry like a waterfall, because it reminded me of what I had and lost. It's this one, but it's in Finnish: I translated the text roughly, so here goes: I return home through the thick smoke People walk by, there?s a hole in the road A wooden station, a closed-down factory I hug myself, hide my hands from the wind If I didn?t know you?re there, I wouldn?t keep on, I couldn?t lift my gaze from the ground When darkness comes I squeeze your hand You'll still be here tomorrow won't you You end the sentences I begin And pick up the pieces as I break apart So you'll still be here tomorrow won't you You'll still be here tomorrow won't you I could listen to your clinging laughter Until the glacial ice melts or night prevails When the crows caw and the soil goes deep I know I did something right when I held on to you The more time goes, I hope That this bliss is eternal When darkness comes I squeeze your hand You'll still be here tomorrow won't you You end the sentences I begin And pick up the pieces as I break apart So you'll still be here tomorrow won't you You'll still be here tomorrow won't you The same force that makes the leaves grow That teaches a small child to walk That drives birds to warmth in the winter Brought us together Brought us together When darkness comes I squeeze your hand You'll still be here tomorrow won't you You end the sentences I begin And pick up the pieces as I break apart So you'll still be here tomorrow won't you You'll still be here tomorrow won't you Now, as I listen to it, and cry, I realise that in my mind the song has a new meaning - it no longer speaks directly of my DF, but of my new BF. He's now the one who finishes my sentences, who picks up the pieces when I fall apart, whom I hug at night and am terrified to lose because of what I've previously experienced. I don't know how I feel about this. Do I feel relieved that I am moving on, or do I feel guilty? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lcoxwell Posted May 24, 2015 Share Posted May 24, 2015 I am so happy for you, that you have noticed that change in your grief. I found a wonderful new man, too, and I often question whether I am feeling relieved or guilty, too. I say, enjoy your new man and embrace all the joy and happiness you can find. Life is far too short to be miserable. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jen Posted May 24, 2015 Share Posted May 24, 2015 I very much doubt your dh would ever want you to feel guilty for not being miserable. ((((Hugs))) I'm so glad you've found love and some peace. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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