amburroni

Hi everyone. My name is Amber. My husband pass away on October 28th from Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. We were married for 28 days and together for a little over 6 years. It was very hard for me to accept because he was not terminal and pass away from fighting an infection he got during chemo. I'm 28 years old and he was 31. I was very fortunate to have a very large support system of friends and family but its still such a lonely process. I feel like my future was completely ripped from me and now I'm this broken individual that is trying to be "single" again while carrying the baggage of being a widow. I don't know anyone else my age going through this. I've been reading through this forum all day and I can't believe how similar some of your situations are dealing with grief. One of my sister in laws encouraged me to start a blog about my experience and I wanted to share it here in hopes it can help someone. Writing helps me sort through my own emotions. Feel free to visit if you'd like. https://intothewoods.blog

Totally been there. I was never suicidal, but I kept hoping that I would get cancer myself, some terrible natural disaster would happen, or a nuclear bomb would come down and take me away from this earth. I still hope every time I get a headache or get sick that its more than it is. I'm 3 months out and feel so empty most of the time. I hope it gets better for you <3