I am so far out now but there are days where it just seems right back where we were. My husband died in an accident when my children were quite young but 12 years later, my children and my life are exactly where yours are.
I couldn't run away because I had those two children who needed me there 24-7 BUT I do know that when I was away for short periods from the sad faces of friends and families, amongst people who didn't know of my hurt or confusion, there was incredible relief. I felt that I could claim a bit of my identity back rather been seen purely as the young widow. Conversations flowed to topics that calmed me and created moments where I remembered I once had interests and ambitions.
You might find being alone without your children daunting at this point -- there is absolutely no time like the present to carpe diem. I don't think you will regret it.
My $0.02.
Kathy
