I've been widowed 8 years now. I was in a pretty good place balancing my past and present. I'm in a committed longterm relationship now. I have no doubts.
Over the past year I discovered I had cancer and went through treatment. I have a very good prognosis but I'm in the game now. Saw my original oncologist today and she said it looks amazing and the pet scan "should be inflammation ". But the highest chance of recurrence is in these next 2 years. Maybe some surgery or laser. Maybe a chemo that wouldn't be "so bad" esp with out radiation this time. Its freaking depressing. So many people are tremendously affected.
I am trying to stay positive but this was the worst thing I ever endured. And that includes widowhood. .
And I'm pissed I didn't feel his presence at all through treatment or when I almost died in the hospital.
I'll always love and honor him but this is some bullshit.
Thanks for letting me vent. That's all I need night now.
I'm really used to be widowed now most days. This has been a huge wrench. I don't really like talking about the cancer
It's funny because I couldn't talk enough about being widowed.
