Hi. Maria from Spain. Had a very very happy marriage for almost 15 years. My husband was the best person I have ever known for a million reasons. We had tried to have children and could not; finally got pregnant after treatment but only 4 months and our twins passed away. One evening, about one month later, my husband was not feeling well, I insisted we went to ER. Cancer stage 4, there was nothing that could be done. He passed away after only one month and a half of battling. This was 4 years ago. Still do not know how on earth I managed to get through everything, friends and family of course did all the work.
About 2 years after the tragedy, I run into my first boyfriend ever...high school sweethearts. What started as a friendship turned out into a most wonderful relationship. He helped me so very much with my grief, amazing person and father (was divorced, 2 teenagers). Suddenly and out of the blue he suffered a heart Attack, not just a "regular" one but one with a number of complications. He fought for 3 months and passed away 15 days ago.
I am 43. My first husband was 38, my second partner 43.
Devasted, destroyed, angry, frustrated, you name it.
I know there is no point in asking "why". Will never get the answer.
No idea what am I going to do, how to cope with all this.
No idea.sorry, needed to share here as I read your posts and see some of you know what I am going through
Thank you
María
