Hello
I am a new member and up til now have just been quietly lurking. My husband of almost 15 yrs died at age 43 from what they told me was a heart attack. His father was 47 when he passed. Heart disease was in his family. He never took good enough care of himself and it was not for lack of me trying. So his cause of death was not a shock.
Six month prior to his death he went into rehab for opioid addiction. It was a huge battle in our relationship for many many years. But I always stuck by him. He was 6 months clean when he passed. I was so proud of him.
Yesterday the coroner called and said there were opioids in his system. He had relapsed. I am crushed. I am hurt, embarrassed for all the fighting I did for him with my family. I am mad. And I am even more torn apart for my two sons, 11 and 9yrs. Bill had a disease. I truly believe opioid addiction is just that. But it just brings a whole new slew of feelings to his death. I miss him. But I am also so mad at him. Why after 6months did he go back to using? We had so many talks. I said, your heart will not be able to take it if you relapse. And i was right. I’m just broken. And in a whole new way.
