matts225

Fuck cancer. I received a call this morning that one of my dearest friends passed away this morning after a 5 year battle. Everywhere I turn, someone is impacted by this horrible, wretched disease.

I am so sorry you had to join us here. I lost my wife almost 3 months ago after an extended illness. This forum has been very helpful in knowing that others have had the same thoughts and feelings that I experienced and that was comforting to me. Visit the forum often and even if you don't post, read through the old posts for helpful information from others who have been down this path we are now on. Take care of yourself the best you can.

This is a start of a difficult week for me. Today would have been our 13th anniversary and Wednesday would have been my wife's 39th birthday. I also learned that one of my best friends since grade school is out of options for his cancer treatment and now only has a short time left. I am lucky to have family visiting to keep me occupied this week. This used to be my favorite time of the year and now it is filled with sadness. I wish she was still here.

Yes! And fuck all the commercials for Valentines Day being another reminder of what I no longer have.

Sabrina, I am sorry for your loss. I am at the 6 week mark since my wife passed away and some days are better than others. I have been going to weekly counseling and that has been beneficial to me. Also, reading posts on this forum has shown me that what I have experienced so far is normal-ish. Hang in there and be kind to your self.

Hannah Marie or Henry Matthew

One month ago, I woke up to find that my beautiful wife, soulmate, and best friend had passed away during the night after a prolonged cancer battle. My world was completely shattered. There have been some OK days and more than a few not so OK days. I started counseling last week to help process some of my emotions, but the days seem to be getting a worse than before. I feel more lost than ever and I find it very difficult to have find happiness or joy in any activities I used to enjoy. But even though the sadness and pain have been tremendous, I am forever grateful for my time with her. She was worth going through this hell I am trying to survive.

Loxlie, I am very sorry for the loss of your wife. This site has been very helpful to me in the time since my wife passed away last month. It is comforting to know that others have walked the path that we are now on and made it through. I pray that you find peace and comfort in the days ahead.

kflex, I am sorry for your loss. I lost my wife to throat cancer 3 weeks and 1 day ago. We were married just short of 13 years and every day without her is so painful. I have found it therapeutic to read all of the forum sections to make myself feel normal that others experienced what I am going through. I also recommend the advice to drink lots of water. I have never drank more water than I have in the past three weeks and I am still constantly thirsty. I pray that you find comfort and peace.

Thank you all for the kind words. The past few days have been a little better. I did visit with her parents yesterday and that was both comforting and heartbreaking being in the house that my wife grew up in. I will be traveling back home tomorrow to start working part time until I am ready to go back full time. It will be my first time back to our home without her being there to greet me after a long trip. I am dreading that moment but I know it is something that I have to do.

I lost my beautiful wife Katie to cancer a little over two weeks ago. We were married for almost 13 years. The past few days have been so difficult, as it seems the initial shock of her passing has worn off and I realize how lost and heartbroken I am without her. She was truly the love of my life and I miss her so much. I never imagined I would be a widower at 38 and be experiencing this much grief and pain. I pray there will be better days ahead.