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I am so so sorry Bluebird- his writings were so helpful to me when I was newly widowed. I remember meeting you both in CT- he looked at you with pure love and joy.   Sending you a hug, wishing you a gentle day.  

Kudos to you for putting yourself out there- sorry you didn't get selected- and a huge congratulations for being accepted into the midwifery program!!  (PS I read some of your blogs- really enjoyed them- your energy come through in your posts! )

I am sorry you are feeling this way.

Not sure if this will be helpful..I hope it is ... Fear has always been my constant companion but I have tired of it companionship.  Practicing meditation has helped to ease my anxiety.  I started small..5 min ...now I start my day with a 20 min of meditating.  Also constantly reminding myself that thoughts are things... Keeping a positive focus, finding the good, looking for the good.  I try to sweep negative, fearful thoughts from my mind as soon as I 'go there'. And I have this quote posted around my house to keep me in the present "when you release expectations, you are free to enjoy things for what they are instead of what you think they should be".  It is a daily challenge for me and I am really awful at this some days and unlike you I do not have the addition responsibilities of  a little one that depends on me. My daughter is grown and out on her own. Always in the back of my mind is the realization  that i have survived what i thought i could never... Losing my DH..my soul mate.

Although i do not 'know' you, from reading your posts i do see an incredibly strong, kind, accomplished resilient woman.  Sending a hug and a high five for keepin on keepin on. 

So sorry that you have had to endure so much this week. It is during a run like this that you just want to stand up and shout out to the Universe "Really!!???"  Wishing you peaceful days ahead.

I want to add that  It was so great to read about the good results you received in Texas. 

How great that you were able to be so open with one another. So much of what you said resonates with me.  Thank you for your open, heartfelt posts.  Wishing you a peaceful evening. 

Thanks for sharing Candace. I am not of the school of thought that everything happens for a reason.

Sorry I cannot make this Bago. Had a great time at the last one. Have fun!

Sorry that you had to part with the RV- in our minds we know it is just a thing, just stuff- but it was their stuff- and  sometimes parting with items that were theirs is so so difficult.  I am having the same issue with tools.  Nice to hear that the new owner is going to fix it up and get it on the road- wishing you a peaceful evening-

Hi Ladybug - sounds like one of those "Is this really my life"? moments -- the no heat would have sent me packing before the cold salad was served!  thanks for sharing. Wishing you much better dates in 2016!

Mark I am so sorry for your loss.  A loss so sudden, so shocking. My husband too passed unexpectedly.  The bottom of our worlds dropped out with the death of our spouse.  How to piece back together your life while grieving the loss of your spouse? Just take one day at a time. When I would think long term, think about the future, I would feel overwhelmed.  Keeping my time horizon short helped me.  The grief, the crying is exhausting.  Please be easy with yourself. Just do what really needs to be done- caring for your precious baby, making sure you drink, eat and get some rest. The rest can wait. When people offer help, accept it. Do read 'suggestions for the newly widowed' posted in the 1 day to 6 month section on this board.  This is wonderful community of people with kind hearts, people who know what you are going through.  Please read, post, vent.  Wishing you some peace today.   

Stephaniem86 I am so sorry that you are here but so glad that you found this wonderful board.  Please be easy with yourself.  Grief is so exhausting.  Just do what needs to get done - self care and taking care of your children. When others offer help, accept it.  Drink plenty of water, rest when you can- sleep can be so elusive.  I am sorry that your pastor said something so upsetting to you. My personal belief is that when I pass I will reunited with my husband and he will know me as his wife.  I think Justin described it very nicely- "it will be more of a pure love and intelligence".  Wishing you and your children some peace today.  Keep coming here to post, to read.  This is a wonderful, caring community of great people who understand what you are going through. 

So sorry.  But i hope you realize how strong you are to realize that this relationship was not what you needed and you made the decision you did.  Hugs.

Wishing you all the best today! 

Positive thoughts being sent your way! 

3 tops and a pocketbook donated. Feels nice to be looking through warmer weather clothes after this long, dark winter. 

Thank you for this thread!  I am coming out of my winter slumber - basically total hibernation, zero activity level.  Committed to walking four days a week for an hour a day.  Thank you all for your inspiration.  Wishing you success in achieving your goals.

Love this thread!

1. made it through an extremely difficult week at work.

2. had a great phone call this morning with a wonderful friend.

3. my daughter is doing well.

(Chemie - where are you? You were always such a wonderful poster on this thread- miss you!)

Thank you so much for this tip- the new format is SO much better!!! 

I am SO happy for you and Andrew!!