beensad

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for your helpful words. I think sometimes we can have such big expectations of ourselves even when we should be giving ourselves time. I do appreciate the reminder. I think I am definitely piling too much on myself and I need to take a step back and process. Journaling is a great idea I hadn't thought of that. I do talk to him when I am alone but this is something I think I am going to take up for me. I do hope you farewell I wish you all the best and thank you again for taking the time out to talk to me. much love Bree

As of 9amit has been an entire week since my Husband has passed. the circumstances were incredibly distressing to say the least. I have a small social circle but a very supportive one. I still cannot believe it happened and to someone so young. They say "the good die young", I find this to be the truth. I have been best friends with him since I was 17 years old. We did everything together, we called each other multiple times a day, and we shared everything in our lives together. Sometimes people would say our relationship was nauseating, not because we would act overly affectionate in public but one of my friends said everyone was jealous of what we had. I really am having a hard time fathoming how to live my life without him. We only spent 2 nights away from each other our whole marriage of 18 plus years. I don't know what to do with myself. I keep expecting him to walk through the door and pick me up but I realize that is unrealistic, I keep grabbing my phone to tell him some news I learned, I keep looking at my phone to see if he called and then I am flooded with dread and hopelessness. Do any of you have any advice on how to get through the first month I would greatly appreciate it? Much love to you all.