Hello Friends:
I often read YoungWidows but only posted once or twice. I am so thankful this website was started to continue helping us through this very difficult journey. Although I rarely posted, I often read other's posts and felt comforted that I was not alone in my feelings of grief.
My wonderful husband Greg died almost 2 years ago at the age of 55 from a sudden heart attack after shoveling snow. He was walking, talking, etc., but complained of chest pain. I called an ambulance (ignoring his protests) and he become non responsible mid-way to the local hospital. They worked on him for 40 minutes in the emergency room but were not able to save him. We had no children, my family pretty much checked out of my life 2 weeks after his death and it has been a very very hard road.
Last fall I was facing my birthday, our anniversary and the holidays and I didn't know how I could go on. I prayed to God and to Greg for help. At about that same time, an innocent facebook message to a high school classmate turned into many messages, then phone calls, then the offer of a date. I am happily dating my new man, but severely missing Greg as I approach the second anniversary of his death. My new man wants to be supportive and helpful with my grief but I feel guilty crying to him about my loss.
When Greg and I married, we both owned our own homes. I moved into his home and have lived here since 1991. I am sick of shoveling snow (can't help but be reminded that that is how Greg died) and fighting the yard. I am seriously planning on putting the house on the market in the next few weeks and am looking at condos.
I am wondering if others feel the need for a new home and the tug of war between loving someone new and missing your former spouse.
Thank you again to those that started this new website. The old one truly saved my sanity on many late nights.
