C Cortez

I'm at the 6 month maker now, the pain is still overwhelming, but in a different way. I'm dreading the holidays this year, because that's when my husband was admitted to the hospital last year. My husbands state of mind was severely altered by the high levels of ammonia, he was in a coma for a week and when he woke up he was very different. One day at a time is what I tell myself everyday and you can push through the pain slowly.

I can relate, my husband and I got a put bull puppy when she was 5 weeks old, she was our baby. He loved our dog so much, after he passed away, my dog Lucy got me through some of the hardest days. She's my last full connection to him. I would do anything for her as well.

Sorry for you loss, I can relate completely. I just lost my husband 1/13/20 from Cirrhosis as well. One day he was making dinner on a Sunday and 2 days later he was throwing up large amounts of blood and we went to the ER. We spent 5 weeks in the hospital, and he was fighting for his life. I saw him go through so many things in the hospital and he was having to relearn how to walk, eat, talk, all the basic functions. He was only 46, didn't think things like this happened at that age. He was the strongest man I knew, we are blended family with 7 kids total, the loss is so huge. He was doing better and getting back more to himself, we were scheduled to transfer to a physical rehab program on Wed 1/15 for 2 weeks then he was finally coming home. I got a call that Monday morning to get to the hospital ASAP, all I could hear was code blue over the loud speaker. he had lost so much blood that he had coded 3 times and at the end all his organs shut down, I had to make that horrible decision to take him off life support. He was my entire world, best man I've ever known. I'm in survival mode everyday now, I feel like I'm walking around in a fog.