Hello everyone..... I'm new here, this is my first post. I'm scared, I'm sad, I'm lost. I lost my dear sweet husband on December 31 2019 at 330 am. It was
Totally unexpected, brain aneurysm that we had no clue of. I'm 38 and a widow, I can't even believe this. We had 23 years together Thanks be to God. But now I'm so alone. We have one daughter who is 18 and had to move home last nite from college. We have one daughter in heaven from when I miscarried at 5 and a half months in 2009. From That point I took care of my father , grandmother, and great aunt. In 2011 my father passed due to medical issues, in 2017 I lost my grandmother, and now 2019 I lose my husband. I've realized I never fully grieved any of those losses. And now the weight of the world is on my shoulders. Since I lost my husband I've been trying to tell myself make it to this date for this, or that, and now with all the Corona virus everything has been cancelled, 2 of my work trips, the fundraiser to honor my husband, and even the Donor Family Reception. Everything that I based on just getting to this date to be ok is gone. I'm sorry for being so long winded, just lost....