Corriebean28

Thanks, Mike!

Hi, I’m new here. My late husband died less than two months ago after a horrific year long battle with cancer. We had many challenges in our 12 year marriage and I was actually on the brink of filing for divorce prior to his diagnosis. I thought the illness would be easy for him to overcome and then give us a new lease on life, even save our marriage... but it didn't work out that way. There are a lot of unresolved Issues. At the end I told him I forgave him and he told me he forgave me, but that’s as much resolution as we had. I’m having a hard time knowing how exactly I should feel. I go back and forth between remembering all the good times and being sad, but then I’ll think about all the things that broke my heart and sometimes I’m still just angry at him. I feel like I’m a bad person for not being sadder. I generally feel “okay.” Am I already moving on? Or am I just in shock still? Has anyone else experienced these kinds of emotions?