Toosoon, I get it. It's incredibly hard to let go of that life we all used to have, even little pieces of it. All I have left of my old life with my first husband is a few boxes of stuff and the cats we adopted together. I moved away from our hometown a couple of years ago, and though it was a hard thing to do, in the long run, it did help me. Maybe this change can help you, too. I found that I could breathe easier in a new city, and it was nice to not be haunted by memories around every corner. It was very bittersweet. Hugs to you.