JosieB

I think when you have experienced the worst thing that could happen in your life for real, then you become aware that the bad things can and do actually happen. Anxiety is all about fear of future events, the way I understand it anyway so I believe it is only natural to feel this way after losing your husband. You need to believe in the opposite too though that good things can & do happen too. I also think that some people are just plain lucky in life but most people experience the ups and the downs, it's just that some people have more ups & some a lot more downs often influenced by their family situation. Hoping that some good things are going to come your way very soon.

What hell the last seven years have been! So many tears, so much grief, it is amazing how we survive, yet we do. I went through all the shock & grief & took it day by day... But I was never angry, now though I am feeling angry. Angry that we couldn't help him get well. Angry that everyone assumes I am ok now after 7 years. Angry at people who sweat the small stuff. The anger is always present now bubbling away just under the surface. I am trying to stay calm and am reading lots of self help & going to try meditation etc. But I am not sure that this anger is going to leave me now it has made such a home for itself. I am not angry at him though, I only feel a great sadness at the loss of such a beautiful soul. Ok just wanted to share and see if anyone has any help they could offer for dealing with this anger as it doesn't feel very good at all. Thank you in advance!

YWBB was an absolute life saver for me and I was really shocked and saddened to check in and see that it had closed!! I didn't post very often but I would read for hours in the early days and it was the only place I could go to draw comfort from others who understood how this really felt. I am 5 years out now and still learning to live this unplanned new life. Reading the posts from the widows ahead of me was a real lifeline for me. I didn't get a chance to copy anything from the old site and I am really thankful to the people who have started this new one. I don't know what went on but I just know that YWBB was invaluable for me and I can't imagine there ever coming a time when I won't want to check in here now. Wanted to really say a heartfelt thank you to you all for your sharing your thoughts, feelings and wisdom (especially the longer-term widows).