Jen, you say all the things I'm thinking, ALL of them.
And I'm farther out than you. I don't know if I've really posted at all on this site, I was a newbie on YWBB before it got shut down. I wandered into chat one night, I believe the same night Maureen heard the terrible news about her PolarBear. And was so grateful to find others going through what I was.
Sometimes I feel I'm manageable, other days I still feel like Beth said and want to crawl in the grave. Then I feel terrible because I have family, and kids who I know need me.
I don't know why but lately, times have been so much harder, my DH was a really special man, but as time went on, not really a good man. I've found so much out over the years and have so much love, hate, sadness, and unresolved feelings about betrayals that will never be understood or mended that many days so feel I'm back at the start.
I know those kinds of things don't relate to you, but the rest of my feelings are right in line with your post. I hope you're doing good, and thank you to all of you for still being here.
