BrokenTre

Lately i have been having these same nightmares i am4 years out so i thought i was past nightmares but in the dreams he is with another woman and dose not want to see me ever again he is on the phone not in person my heart is breaking and Im begging him to come back i wake up in tears or raging angry that he left me idk how long i can take this been weeks now every night ugh well at least i know I'm not alone in having these dreams

I am also just 4 years out and i think i am feeling the same way i cant imagine actually being with anyone else but i also cant see the rest of my life alone, and while i loved my husband dearly he had a few traits i would care to avoid .i have even gone as far as making a profile on a dating site with absolutely no intention of going on a date just to boost my ego i just want to know i may still be attractive ,its sick i know! i have gotten a few messages so far i cant respond i freak out the thought of a date terrifies me i feel as if i would betray him idk what is wrong with me

Yesterday would have been our 6th thought i was doing OK but he waves of sadness have been hitting me all day in September will be 4 yrs he is gone but i feel like it was yesterday no one i know irl understands or even would want to listen to it "i should be all better by now !" sorry thanks for letting me just say it ..